5 Years Silent
Hello Friends,
It's funny how quickly time passes, yet in the same hand, it feels like it drags on forever...I guess that's how time works: drag and pass, drag and pass... And all the while, one can only watch it happen whilst being propelled forward by the daily demands of being alive and a participant of life.
I realized today how long it has been since I've been here, how long it's been since I last made any public comment about anything. 5 years. Holy crap, what the heck has been going on?
Well, I've been busy and only a portion of it has added any true happiness to my existence. In summary, I stopped doing what filled my soul in the effort to bring myself to a point deemed socially responsible and acceptable. It's been an uphill battle and it has worn on my physical and mental stamina. The pursuit of an expectation to have what everyone else has... well, I'm beginning to think that maybe it's just not for me.
But as life and time proves, things change. Over the past year, the spark has been re-ignited. One phone call early last year struck the match and I'm finding my way back to me. I'm writing again. The joy and energy I feel in my soul after a good day lost in the creative waters is something I didn't realize I missed (or absolutely needed) until I jumped back in. I'm learning to swim again. I'm coming back to me. I'm learning new things, I'm looking at new things and my soul is feeling moments of joy again. I'm not who I was, but I'm going for who I should be. A writer.
So, this is my focus. Returning to the path of becoming and being me. Wearing the hat that the best suits me, doing that which makes me happy and gives me the energy to share myself with those closest to my heart. Those things that are meant for me will come when it is time. Focusing on them doesn't help me find me. Writing helps me find me, even though it's a path through made up worlds and faces, I find me around every corner and that's what I need. There are good things coming. I'm told that often. I have faith, and a good hat to wear now. If I'm quiet going forward, just know that I'm working in my happiness and good things will come from it.
It's funny how quickly time passes, yet in the same hand, it feels like it drags on forever...I guess that's how time works: drag and pass, drag and pass... And all the while, one can only watch it happen whilst being propelled forward by the daily demands of being alive and a participant of life.
I realized today how long it has been since I've been here, how long it's been since I last made any public comment about anything. 5 years. Holy crap, what the heck has been going on?
Well, I've been busy and only a portion of it has added any true happiness to my existence. In summary, I stopped doing what filled my soul in the effort to bring myself to a point deemed socially responsible and acceptable. It's been an uphill battle and it has worn on my physical and mental stamina. The pursuit of an expectation to have what everyone else has... well, I'm beginning to think that maybe it's just not for me.
But as life and time proves, things change. Over the past year, the spark has been re-ignited. One phone call early last year struck the match and I'm finding my way back to me. I'm writing again. The joy and energy I feel in my soul after a good day lost in the creative waters is something I didn't realize I missed (or absolutely needed) until I jumped back in. I'm learning to swim again. I'm coming back to me. I'm learning new things, I'm looking at new things and my soul is feeling moments of joy again. I'm not who I was, but I'm going for who I should be. A writer.
So, this is my focus. Returning to the path of becoming and being me. Wearing the hat that the best suits me, doing that which makes me happy and gives me the energy to share myself with those closest to my heart. Those things that are meant for me will come when it is time. Focusing on them doesn't help me find me. Writing helps me find me, even though it's a path through made up worlds and faces, I find me around every corner and that's what I need. There are good things coming. I'm told that often. I have faith, and a good hat to wear now. If I'm quiet going forward, just know that I'm working in my happiness and good things will come from it.
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