This isn't the letter I meant to write. I suppose it never is. This place is getting to me. I've been here too long. Amongst the pieces and fragments. Memories like glints of light off glass shards. I've tried to reconstruct my path here, but it is as blurred as the landscape one passes staring out of a car window. You remember the general outline, a few of the bigger details, but the rest is fuzzed over tarmac and trees. The one question that drives me mad is how it all started. If she pushed me or if I followed after. It's like the residue of a song one hears on the radio but doesn't know well enough to sing or remove from one's head. An infinite loop bouncing against the skull.

The rules of this world aren't concrete. Here in these liminal spaces the landscape is continually shifting. The edges of each space rubbing against the other and fraying. Sometimes becoming enmeshed. Other times causing so much friction one burns the other. I feel it may only be a matter a time before my escape routes are reduced to a single path.
At one point, I was definitely following her. Learning the rules by her navigation. Running to her like a stream chases gravity. But at some point we've switched roles, and I can sense her presence, circling me like prey. She's getting closer.

This isn't to say either of us are the same as when this began. We've both changed. Shifted. In my case, I've become weaker, my past draining from me and feeding into her. Them. She's compounded as she's grown stronger. Taking further ghosts into her and becoming multi-faceted. My only saving grace is the knowledge I gleaned from her in the beginning and the tricks I've learned on my own along the way.

I can create worlds now and because of this I've been able to remain hidden. But the elevator is the only way out. In my journey I've come across clues suggesting a map. I must find it. But leaving the safety of my own worlds is dangerous and leaves me exposed. I must remember how all of this started. I must find the map and escape this place. It could be anywhere(s)…