My latest WIP tells the story of an actress/public speaker who develops a kink for being dominated, humiliated and engaging in salacious sexual exploits. Essentially she develops a slut-fetish that flies in the face of her public image. It's a sort of Doctor Jackyll/Ms. Bimbo thing but I like to really get into the psychology of my characters.

Due to this, I really wanted to explore how her thinking would evolve as she went further down the rabbit hole. Notably, I find myself interested in the idea of "freedom." This character is old money rich and despite using her connections to open doors, has convinced the world that she built her fame and reputation through hard work. In both her secret past and her public present she has wealth, power, influence and respect but is she free? When she starts getting into being a slut she is forced to disguise herself, lie about what she's doing, dance on the precipice of discovery but never cross that line. Eventually she starts to wonder, is that freedom? Is she truly free in her privileged life if being herself would see her shunned and socially destroyed?

This leads me to wonder about my own life. There are obvious limits to my freedom laws and major social lines that I would not want to cross even if I could. Yet there are other aspects, things which I could legally do but which I have been told, all my life, that one can't do. Why? Because it makes people I don't know or care about uncomfortable? Because it makes people who's opinions don't matter to me think less of me? There's a chain there, something holding me back despite my recognition of the injustice of it. Yet, I have to wonder, who put that chain there and would I like who I'd be if I unchained myself from those restrictions?

I know my character will certainly like who she becomes in the end ;)