Today is the eve of my book being released, and my emotions are twisted up in a knot.

One might think that after spending a year writing, revising, editing, formatting, cover designing, and interior designing, one might be excited to show all of their hard work to the world. But that couldn’t be farther from the truth.

Today, my book is perfect and unflawed.

Today, this is some of my finest work.

Today, everyone is going love it, and all my work and sacrifice is worth the effort.

Tomorrow…is another story.

Tomorrow, the truth will shatter my hopes. Someone will give me a one-star review because I did too good of a job making an annoying character be annoying.

Tomorrow, friends and family will opt to not like my post, for fear that it will let on that they saw it and that I might call them out for not buying it.

Tomorrow, sales will show a future that I might not recoup the cost of the beautiful cover art I commissioned.

Being an optimist means that I’m always disappointed, and this is just one of those times. Every book launch, I go through this struggle. It is always the same.

However…

The day after tomorrow, I will start that new WIP I’ve been itching to start.

The day after tomorrow, I will trick myself into believing that this new project is different; that this one will make me whole.

The day after tomorrow, I will fall in love with the whole process all over again.

Take care, and thank you for reading any of my work. It means the world to me.

-Pieter