You’ve gotta grow. That’s it. Just grow. Forget goals and planners full of tasks. Grow today. Grow in the areas that are important because you FEEL they are important. If it’s too much, you must scale it down. Trying to juggle too many plates will cause a failure at juggling just a few, or only one. If it’s important to you, allow yourself to FEEL what that gravitational pull of motivation is supposed to trigger in you. You want to work when you truly understand the importance of the work. Not the laundry list of musts and shoulds delivered into your mind’s inbox by the outside world.
You have internal systems which guide you based on the internal workings of your own body and mind. No matter how others treat you, you are your own intelligence. You have free will to choose how you will live. You control your own mass of cells, your space, your actions, and the effects of those actions.
So grow, make it count.