When I was growing up most "love" that I received came from what you could offer a person. If you didn't do as they say or give them what they wanted then you was trash and awful lies was spread about you until you cave to whatever demands was being asked of you. In my life I have always felt replaceable like I didn't really ever belong with my "family" or anyone else. I'm not sour about it anymore because I finally know my self-worth and I have ran across some amazing loving people in my time who have showed me unconditional love. Also, I realized you have to find your place in life and pray for everyone and wish them the very best in life and truly mean it, even if they treat you awful. The feeling of not belonging still sticks to me like a glue in my current life maybe because it's the way my mind was trained, I'm not sure. I struggle as a person to really make those connections with people because in my mind I can be replaced and I'll never be good enough so I protect myself. I have had friends in my life for 20+ years and they will all tell you I disappear on them, then two to five years later I give them a call and the conversations pick up like I never stopped talking to them then I disappear again. The point of this blog is to let people know it's okay not to be liked or loved by everyone. It's okay to be the weirdo that others question and talk shit about. It's okay to be just you and you are perfect in every way. Who cares what the bully from your past or future spreads about you. It's okay if your parents or friends never cared or loved you, it's Okay to cry and it's okay to hurt. However, you're still perfect in every single way just the way the good Lord made you. You might not be loved or liked by everyone but you are loved and liked by many. Never forget that my friends. We can ride any storm out together because we done been through some of the worst. Keep your heads up. Tomorrow is always a new day and the storms will always pass.