…set them free.

That’s what people say. I think that, if you love someone, you simply need to tell them. One cannot simply assume that the other person will know if you do not tell them how you feel.

Hello, awesome people, and happy Saturday everyone.

Days before my 30th birthday and I’ve been feeling bluer than ever. And no, it’s not because the third decade of my life is coming to an end. I tend to enjoy new beginnings. It’s because I’ve come to realise that the people who love us, truly love us, never let us second guess. The are always there for us. They fight for us. And, in the end, they prove that what they said is actually true.

Over the past couple of years there were so many ups and downs in my life that I reevaluated so many things. Many people passed by but only few have stayed. I don’t mind. It just makes me feel sad the fact that those who used to say all those big words, in the end, didn’t manage to prove their words with actions.

When you’re like me and you wanna believe the best for everyone, when you give second chances, wanting to believe that people truly deserve them, you end up hurting even more when you realise they didn’t. You end up thinking that it’s better not to have expectations. You just need to appreciate just the little things life has to offer.

And yet… If you don’t expect anything, can you still hope and dream?

I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately. About how easy it is to not let your hopes and dreams affect what you expect from others. It’s a great burden, you know… Expecting something from someone. The pain is twice as big when hopes don’t go hand in hand with reality in the end.

As my birthday approaches, I hope what some people had said to me was true. Apparently it wasn’t. I’m not gonna lie and I’m not gonna hide (even tough I have been hiding my pain on a daily basis). It hurts like hell. Mostly because, over the past couple of years, it made me lose all my hope in love.

But, on the other hand, it made me appreciate my people. Those who have stayed with me during my ups and my downs.

My dear ones, if you read this right now, I truly want you to know that I don’t take your love for granted. I love you twice as much and I feel blessed that you’re in my life.

I know this is not one of my usual posts but I wanted to write this for quite some time now.

I guess some things haven’t changed and I’m already feeling lighter, now that all those emotions have been put onto “paper” (well, in this case keyboard and screen).

To conclude, because you might have lost me somewhere in the translation, my point is that time is precious. You should not let time pass by and you most certainly should not let opportunities and monumental, life-changing chances get lost.

If I have a goal for the next ten years it’s this: I will go big or I will go home.

I will follow my momma’s advice, to not waste opportunities and time. To live my life to the fullest. And those who want to be in my life, those who know how I feel about them, they will be there for me. I know that. Deep down, I do.

Thank you all so very much for being here once again, awesome nerds. It honestly means the world to me and I want you to know that I most certainly don’t take your presence here for granted.

Have an amazing weekend, dearies. Stay safe and stay positive!

Till next time… Toodles!