Lesson learned

Still life graphite pencil drawing of a bear skull

On 11” x 14” on canson bristol

I’ll tell you something. I can sit there and question what I’m doing, where I’m going with my art, what meaning does it have for me, for anyone else, why this and not that…. Seriously. What am I even doing???

Then, when I eventually sit down to work, everything melts away. All the confusion, the angst, the incessant doubt, the existential dread, and I feel calm and my mind is clear and I find purpose. Right then, wordlessly, it all makes sense.

It doesn’t matter what I’m working on, if I think it’s good or bad or whether the imagery is important or useless or whatever. Just Working – not thinking about the work – but the actual doing, brings me indescribable peace.

So ya, maybe this is just a skull, reading glasses, a book. Maybe it can bring a chuckle, maybe in can spark feelings about the nature we are killing with our ignorance (seriously whatever floats your boat), but for me it was a bunch of hours of blissful work, especially after weeks and weeks of spiralling into a black hole of wtf-am-I-doing.

I love the work.

Thanks for looking.