Folks, I'm up against it.

If I stop making bad jokes, I'll start screaming.

Of the current situation:

1) my girlfriend/junior wife is in the hospital 150 miles away. She has surgery tomorrow to replace a shunt. She's hydrocephalic.

2) My senior wife was in a bad car accident 1 weeks ago. There is a lot of fallout from this
2a) she has a broken collar bone
2b) our prius is so much junk
2c) she can't drive
2d) she can't work, which causes money issues
2e) She's in discomfort, but not a lot of pain.

3) My younger son is in jail, heaing on the 29th. The charges are serious, they have him dead to rights, and I expect he may plead out.

4) I am the sole earner for the household. This gives me endless panic. It went badly the last times we tried. At least this time, I'm making about 25.50 an hour. We have a TON of medical bills from my achilles.

5) I am back to work, torn achilles and all. This is physically stressful in a number of ways:
5a) torn achilles is healed and getting a workout
5b) sciatica feels as if I'm wearing a barbed wire girdle
c) No AC on my bus. We are under excessive heat warnings
d) On Friday, my bus threw an alarm I couldn't turn off. I did 2 weeks, 60 hours, on a bus with that kind of alarm, literally working under conditions the UN defines as torture. I still have PTSD I told the mechanic it had to be fixed or I would park the bus on a railroad track.
e) my route got re-arranged, and now I have to clock in 10 minutes earlier
f) I get up at 4, leave before 5, come home at 630, go to bed at 8. That's still brutal and I;m not as young as I was 7 years ago.

6) We have no AC in the house. It's so hot I cannot crochet

7) Just for giggles, I have a cold. It might be strep, but I'm not checking. i have a cold, and that's it.