I’ve had many callings in the twenty-six years of my life.

I’ve been a daughter, a sister, and a friend. I’ve been a nanny, a balloon twister, a college student, and most recently a writer. Most of the time, these things can coexist with each other. But sometimes, something crops up—a problem I wasn’t expecting or an issue I might need to deal with—and that leaves me with a question…

How am I supposed to know which is the more important calling on my life?

Should I be loyal to my family, above all else? Perhaps writing is what God has truly called me to. Or maybe it’s some other, third thing, I’ve yet to discover.

What should I be loyal to? What gets my whole attention? How do you decide something like that?

Sometimes, I feel so pulled in so many different directions, I feel like I’ve been split into two different people, and I have no idea which version is the real version, the real me.

Do you ever feel like that? What does God have to say about that?

Vegas Alli VS Ohio Alli.

I’m not going to lie, Vegas Alli is pretty cool. She’s got a lot going for her. She’s funny, charming, and above all else, loyal to her family. She spent the majority of her teen years running after her younger siblings, ripping them out of mischief and keeping them from killing each other. She knew what her calling was. It was to her family (and they’re super awesome).

(I mean, seriously, look at how cool these people are!)

But then God yanked her out of Vegas and placed her in Ohio, and suddenly, without her family, she didn’t know what to do. She sat in her empty apartment, without the sound of running, shrieking children echoing off the walls around her, and realized for the first time in her life, she was by herself. She was alone.

And she could do whatever she wanted to do.

That’s when Ohio Alli first sprang up.

Ohio Alli really enjoys her me-time. She is brave, a little sassy, and most importantly, dedicated to her mission. To write books that fight the lies of the enemy. (You can check out those books here!)

Both Allisons are me, but both Allisons had different missions. Vegas Alli was loyal to her God-given mission to love her family and Ohio Alli is loyal to the ministry God has called her to.

When God calls you out of one mission and into another.

At first, I really struggled with this transition. So much of my life had been dedicated to my family (and that was a really good thing!) But then, when God called me to a different mission, I didn’t know what to do with myself. How could I still be loyal to my family, be there for them, and serve them in all the ways I had when I lived over 300,000 miles away?

The enemy loves a good opportunity. He loves to come in and create chaos and confusion. (He’s a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour.) His weapon of choice? Lies.

Here’s the lie: I was betraying my family by pursuing writing.

When I first moved to Ohio, I loved my new life, my school, my work—all of it. Even the crappy apartment I had that got infested with wasps and all manor of creepy crawlies. I adored it.

And I felt horribly guilty for it. I felt like I was betraying my family by choosing this career that God had put on my heart.

But that was a lie. I wasn’t betraying anyone. It wasn’t a question of which purpose I thought was more important or not.

It was a question of whether I would be obedient to God or not.

Here’s the truth: God created you on purpose for a purpose, but your identity—who you are—cannot be your purpose. You have to get your identity from God.

Because that purpose can change based on the season of life you’re in. I felt like two different people because I had allowed the enemy to lie to me, to convince me that my identity came from what I did.

You are not your work.

God has called us to love one another, and that can look completely and totally different every season, every month, even every day. It doesn’t mean that your mission and what God called you to wasn’t “real” before, or that it wasn’t what you were supposed to be doing. It just means that how God wants you to fulfil your mission has changed.

I am supposed to love my family. But I am also supposed to pursue this ministry God has called me to.

One is not more important than the other, and my identity shouldn’t crumble around me when God calls me more into one of those purposes than the other. For this season, God has called me to be a writer, and I need to obey that.

Don’t let the enemy lie to you and convince you that you’re only here on this earth for your purpose, or that you’re awful for your obedience! God loves you for you and not for what you can do.

Has your mission in life ever changed? Tell me about it in the comments below!

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