I loved it so much . Be strong on your own first, u know.

I had this thought about self esteem and self assurance. Actually, a romantically connected one!

After writing this blog, I felt it is not the right way for self assurance because it depends on external validation. But at the same time, there are times in life when these small things act as catalysts for self development. Still, I must say it is a fictional grey area.

The possibility is slim but let us say I find a guy I like so much. He ticks all the boxes that I had written and even the unwritten ones I would love.

Obviously, I don’t like to date for any longer than a few days. So, I would want to introduce this guy to my parents. If he is the one, he wouldn’t hesitate, you know.

But before that I would stutter it to my sister. And boy, she is nothing less than a brother who would not approve of anyone except considering that she being a sister and not a brother she may approve of a prince

If she wouldn’t approve, the bets on my own approval would become abysmal and we would break up. She is a reliant person on taking advice. It sounds bad as I am the one who is marrying but it matters. Because if she approves of him for her dear sister that is me, then he is really something.

Then, I guess my parents approval is a given. As my sister thinks so much like them. And the marriage will take place.

It will be a rare occasion when everyone agrees together. It would feel so good when all are happy.

It is not just my sister’s approval you see. It is also about the unsaid fears, unsaid red flags I would have been unconsciously avoiding. So, once my sister disapproves, all these come to the surface and I would see him in a different light which won’t work out. That is why I won’t go ahead.

Also, the point is my sister and parents have been my prime guide, mentor apart from being a family. And their assessment of a person is quite great.

The impact it does …

I don’t know how you guys connect to it. But for me, it is a big thing. As I still feel like a child. I didn’t even start working. technically that is the truth.

So, me finding a guy who actually is a great match is an absolute indication of me knowing my mind and I am being able to make my own decisions which are good for me. I can rely on my own decisions which give stability to my life.

I would feel like I am time and time again making the right choices.

Of course, we make mistakes and learn from them becoming a good decision maker as we go ahead. It is just like the first experiences when you choose the right decision of the many choices available. The joy and happiness for that moment

Slim chances. But hope is always there

Thanks so much! Love u