In this week’s journal entry.

Well, I haven’t been here in a long while. I write outside this space. In my newsletter, which I sometimes think isn’t working, as I get no replies, only a few, very scarce times. Not that I seek attention, I don’t like that. I do not want to be in the spotlight. I like my work to be in the spotlight, but not me, even though that’s a difficult task, for I am the creator of that work, and it goes hand in hand.

I work hard on the things I do, like writing and creating services for Arte Escrito Estudio Creativo, because I know these writing tools will help writers. Both I enjoy doing, while doubting along the way. It’s that satisfying sensation I get when working on them that fuels me and helps me keep walking this creative path I’ve chosen for my life.

While writing these lines, doubt knocks on my door. Will this be read? It asks me.

Maybe, I answer. Maybe.

Still, I write these words as a battle cry against doubt. I am not one to expose my feelings to the world to know what goes on with me: my struggles as a writer, and those of the publishing business, and the events that sometimes overwhelm me.

No, you won’t find me doing so. Only sometimes, letting you know, now and then, that I’m overwhelmed, but never going into details.

What do I do to break the battle against doubt and rise and keep doing? The only thing I do, besides visiting church to pray sometimes, is write.

Writing in my journal heals. When I can’t write because life has another thing for me to do that day, robbing me of my dear pleasure of continuing working on my story, I write in my journal.

It is the only way I know how to battle doubt. Not fancy words of encouragement, nor looking at myself in the mirror and talking to myself. No, writing does the job. And yes, sometimes it takes more than just writing in the pages of my journal. It helps to let it all out while crying, breathing deeply, and remembering the love I have in the house I live in. There, my safety net lies. Amongst those whom I love dearly, my family. With them, I find the peace I need, and with them I stay until I can come back to sharing my life as a writer through my work.

Doubt will always be there. It is a truth one must accept, but work through. Or so I think, and do.

And to put myself out here for it must be done to keep building my author platform and help my work reach more readers. And, of course, if you enjoy reading my writing, I do more than write books. I write a newsletter, and enjoy it!

Honestly, I started it with the sole purpose of building my author platform, which is utterly necessary, but it felt alien to me as if it were not an extension of my writing. I doubt it could work, sometimes I still do, but I slowly fell in love with it. I relish conversing with you outside the crowded world of social media through the newsletter, sharing details of my new story with sneak peeks, parts of a scene, a drawing, or an adventure I took.

It has transformed itself into an extension of my writing far beyond my books.

So, yes. Between doubt and writing, which is the doing, I walk this path I adore with its ups and downs. It is what I love to do.

If you see me at an event only smiling or silent, I’m timid, and most of the time, I have no idea how to start a conversation. I freeze, my apologies. That is a small confession that only a few know of me, and now you.

If you are reading these words, I thank you for doing so and for the visit. And if you wish to extend your reading experience beyond my books and this corner of my world, think of signing up for my newsletter. You will enjoy it immensely! It is, after all, a conversation outside social media, which, at times, we need a break from. It will arrive in your inbox once or twice a month, depending on life, but I have taken on the task of making it twice a month to keep you up to date with the new story. Those subscribed get first view of the drawings, events I will attend, snippets of scenes, meet the characters, and have the opportunity to be the first to know when the book is coming out and the pre-sale date. By the way, the newsletter is in Spanish even though I have written this in English. But soon it’ll be in English

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Have a great week, until the next post on this journal I share with you, or until this Friday when my newsletter is sent.

Un abrazo,

Alexandra

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