Gloria Rising pgs. 87-89

AUTOMATIC LETTER 61
Monday night

Dear Adam,

Tonight we had an odd dream – in it an older Gloria and I were walking
through a forest when we met (would you believe it?) a three eyed
woman. She smiled and asked, “What we would like to be like if we could.”
We didn’t understand then Gloria said, “I’d like to be as normal as a child
would be.” The lady smiled and said, “You have all those qualities now –
children have a sense of wonder about all of life – children are free to show
affection – children are unconcerned about conformity – all things seem
possible for a small child,” Gloria inquired, “But I’m not supposed to be a
child now?” and the lady said, “Jesus commands that we should, “become
as little children to enter the Kingdom of Heaven – this is needed for your
spiritual life and you have it already except that you are not a little child
who is totally dependent. You are rooted in trust though and persistent
but not as a child but persistent to getting bread at an imminent hour and
in getting help when needed to get a fair ruling.” The woman went right
on talking till we both fell asleep and when we woke up we were children
and we saw a large black beast looking straight at us – we didn’t move –
till we got tired of sitting there, we made a move to get up and the beast
started to get up. We ran and came out of the forest and saw a house with
a golden key in the door, we unlocked the door and locked it with the key
and we could hear the animal banging against the door and I woke Gloria
up before the dream went further. Hope tomorrow’s dream is a better one.

Gloria’s Helper

AUTOMATIC LETTER 62
Wednesday night

Dear Adam,

Forget the woman upstairs. I’m not wasting any more time on someone
who doesn’t know that to survive she must get a permanent refuge.
She’s getting enough sympathy from Gloria for three people – if I don’t
get some sense for both of us – we’ll end up wondering how long we can
take this before it drives us crazy. At least, we have you to help us and
I’m going on to get rid of the past and Gloria can take care of current
events.
I’m trying something new tonight – trying to solve problems through
dreams and I’m going into a trance and dream state now – I’ll be back if it
works.
Later
Gloria’s Helper again – I’m not sure that what I tried worked except that
I’m able to say that the last dream I told you about had to do with a little
girl whom I had heard sobbing after a beating and I left off on my recalling
of that dream where I had seen her leaving with a shovel in her hand.
Well I followed her tonight – the same little girl – at first she didn’t see
me – then when she did she ran, and I lost her (in the dream I mean) and
I was in a state of shock – I found it hard to concentrate because it seemed
important to find her and I felt grief at my loss and fear for her – these
tumultuous waves of emotion created a feeling of panic that drove me on
searching until I stopped for a brief rest. I sat on a rock and realized that I
had no definite destination.
I was not facing the issue for that little girl’s survival – running in
shear panic was the last thing that would save her – then suddenly I saw
her – a distance away. She was coming out through a thick mounds of
straw and I started to follow her again but this time slowly – she still
carried the shovel. She talked to herself and said, “Here – if I want to see it – its right here.” Then she started digging and as she started I saw
someone else watching her – the woman who had an extra eye in the
middle of her forehead.
She motioned for me to be quiet by putting a finger across her mouth
and we both watched the little girl digging then the shovel struck something
– something that stopped the shovel’s penetration but didn’t seem to
be hard as a rock – the little girl let go of the shovel and lowered herself to
her knees and began digging with her hands like a child who plays in a sand
pile, a moment later as she worked the soil, she pulled this object she had
uncovered free from the earth that had covered it – it was a blanket. The
little girl started to tremble and she stared at the blanket for a long time as
if afraid to open it – but I guess she had come too far to turn back now. I got
a lot closer and so did the woman with the third eye but she motioned again
not to let my presence be known so I kept quiet. We saw the little girl with
a shaking hand folding back one corner of the blanket. She could only stand
to look at it for a second – already the flesh had begun to rot away and the
skin was gone from the skull – the little girl dropped the tiny corpse back
into its grave and she was shoving dirt back over it when she dug the dirt
back lifted up the little bundle again and tenderly wrapped it up completely
in the blanket. Then she put the dirt back and put rocks all around and on
top of the mound – then she was sick to her stomach and her face all pale
and her whole little body trembled as she started to walk away.
I was going to go to her – when the woman motioned me back and she
started to follow the little girl – somehow I understood the woman was
going to help her and I thought I must get to some shelter at once or I’m
going to die and I woke myself up. I’m not quite awake yet but almost and
I’m very tired – guess I’m not doing as much good at this as I thought – if
it wasn’t for the fact that I want to help Gloria to live and I want to live
too – I’d give it all up.
Don’t you give up or it’s all over – thank you for being there and God
bless you.

Gloria’s Helper