Some of you are fighting CPTSD and you don’t even recognize the signs. What’s CPTSD? Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Understand. I’m no expert. In fact, I learned about and researched this while writing #AlmostDestroyed. But what I’ve learned is, we can experience CPTSD from trauma, past relationships, our childhood, witnessing abuse, infidelity, religious hurt, disease, financial trauma, abandonment, bullying, infidelity, harassment, homelessness, and the list goes on.

And when you suffer with CPTSD, it causes you to have difficulty controlling your emotions, intense anger, sustaining relationships, believing you are enough, feelings of shame, guilt, or worthlessness, nightmares and/or flashbacks. You know what else? You’ll feel connected to your trauma and will have a hard time coming out of agreement with it. Why do you think you continue to crave a relationship with the person who keeps hurting you? It’s because there’s something going on, in your mind, that makes you loyal to things that are not loyal to you.

Baby, you may have CPTSD. This is why when something happens, you won’t even recognize that you’ve been triggered until afterwards. At that point, you’ve probably done things you wouldn’t normally do. Like hurt yourself or others. You’ll find yourself floating, face down, in sin and it’s not until you’ve come back to yourself that you now regret what you’ve done. All from being triggered by unresolved hurt, and unhealed trauma that you don’t even know is CPTSD.

This thinking, “hurt them before they hurt me,” or “let me get my lick back,” are both side effects of CPTSD. A side effect you’ll never get rid of if you don’t, A. Admit you need help, B. Get help to figure out your triggers, and C. Receive the help to manage and control when you’re triggered.

Beloved, you don’t have to continue to live like this. Stop being ashamed of your struggle because there is help available, but you must make yourself available for it.

I’m looking forward to meeting the healed YOU.