Breaking Bad... Why do I relate?
I. Love. Breaking. Bad.
Why, you might ask? I don't do or encourage drugs. I don't allow my almost 11-year old to watch it. Yet, I am mesmerized, almost addicted to this show. I guess the fact that an ordinary teacher--not to say teachers are ordinary, but this one was--can dig deep and find within himself something he thought he didn't have: badassness, (Yes, I know that's not a word) is what keeps me glued to it. If you watch from the first episode, the transformation is almost beyond belief to what he has accomplished and the person he is now. Is he a good person? Opinion on that greatly differs. But I guess I can relate. When I had to leave my career in human resources to stay home and care for my mil, who was bed-bound with dementia and severe medical issues, I too had to transform. From a desk jockey, computer-driven people-helper to a diaper-changing, bath-giving, hand-holding person. When she passed, 18 months later, I had a choice to make: go back to HR, where I'd spent my entire career, or transform myself again. I chose the latter. Now, I look at my closets full of designer suits and clothes, my expensive watches/jewelry and piles and piles of shoes that I no longer need, and yet cannot bring myself to get rid of, because I have yet to decide if my transformation is over. Will I give up the new me and go back to 8-5, keeping up with the Jones' or can I stay complacent by being alone most days, not leaving the house for weeks at a time, living in a bubble of words, stories and Internet friends? I don't know. Maybe when I see where Walter White ends up--in the end--I can finally figure out if I have more transforming to do, or if this is my last disguise.
Regardless of what happens, the clothes are out-dated... But I'm keeping the shoes.
Why, you might ask? I don't do or encourage drugs. I don't allow my almost 11-year old to watch it. Yet, I am mesmerized, almost addicted to this show. I guess the fact that an ordinary teacher--not to say teachers are ordinary, but this one was--can dig deep and find within himself something he thought he didn't have: badassness, (Yes, I know that's not a word) is what keeps me glued to it. If you watch from the first episode, the transformation is almost beyond belief to what he has accomplished and the person he is now. Is he a good person? Opinion on that greatly differs. But I guess I can relate. When I had to leave my career in human resources to stay home and care for my mil, who was bed-bound with dementia and severe medical issues, I too had to transform. From a desk jockey, computer-driven people-helper to a diaper-changing, bath-giving, hand-holding person. When she passed, 18 months later, I had a choice to make: go back to HR, where I'd spent my entire career, or transform myself again. I chose the latter. Now, I look at my closets full of designer suits and clothes, my expensive watches/jewelry and piles and piles of shoes that I no longer need, and yet cannot bring myself to get rid of, because I have yet to decide if my transformation is over. Will I give up the new me and go back to 8-5, keeping up with the Jones' or can I stay complacent by being alone most days, not leaving the house for weeks at a time, living in a bubble of words, stories and Internet friends? I don't know. Maybe when I see where Walter White ends up--in the end--I can finally figure out if I have more transforming to do, or if this is my last disguise.
Regardless of what happens, the clothes are out-dated... But I'm keeping the shoes.
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