Am really sorry.  I have been neglecting you. You are a mirror, to my being every time I want to look at my past , I relive my moments with you. I go through our snippets of past and laugh at our childishness ,how we have matured over the time . Sometimes we reiterate the same thing and you still let me have my say , you understand me . I felt you there just standing by my door , watching me every night . You wanted to help me but I was so distant. I was not even acknowledging you . I used to look at you from the corner of my eyes and just look away. I knew you were in trouble you were going through a phase but I wanted you to understand me as well. I remember when you crept up to me that night, you took me in your embrace. You told me everything is gonna be all right, I should understand. I was scared , I could not make a move. You are a part of my being, I only want to give you my best.I was not my usual self , you know the reason even if I don't tell you. You consider these factors as a part of my existence now, sometimes you even forget that I am suffering from them, and when I am with you I forget that too. I am happy with you , I forget everything that is wrong with me. I want you to know, I will be a better at channeling my emotion to you now and put my thoughts more into you......I love you my blog ....