When his Aaji , his grandmother, died in 1978, the six year old boy who loved her a lot did not cry. For 37 years , I kept scolding and blaming him for not crying. I also made up that something was wrong with him and that he was suffering from an emotional disorder. I thought his emotions function abnormally . He has excess of them at times and at times none. Because of this he messed up his relations and no one understood him. When Aaji died his parents did tried to soothe him and support him. He felt abandoned and that no one cared for him.

In the Landmark Relationship Seminar I discovered that something was wrong with him was my interpretation and that it was perfectly OK not to cry, I invented the possibility of being kind, loving and compassionate with him by giving up my interpretation . I ran my fingers through his head and talked to him about his granny's death. He burst into tears and cried. I got his helplessness and misery and grief as being perfectly valid. I invented possibility of oneness with myself , fully getting myself.

In the Seminar I also saw that the interpretation that I so righteously held on to that people ,especially my father, did not care about me and that I was small and powerless took my self expression away. I thought sharing with others was futile: how can a small and powerless person communicate with indifferent people? I was lonely sad and resigned in my prison of owns interpretations. I carried resentment towards people and stayed alone on my own. I took the responsibility of this story and experience of feeling abandoned and not understood, thus ending my resentment towards people who I thought did not care for me. I gave up being right about others not caring for me. Suppressed anger, bitterness and resignation fell away. I created possibility of being peaceful and loving.

I also discovered my power to share and communicate irrespective of whether others are interested or not. In Landmark Relationship Seminar a whole new world of relatedness is opening up for me. A world I had no access to without the distinctions of the program.