I think that there's a mixture of frustration and condemnation in me. I certainly can't say that any of this has been what I thought it would be. Looking around my home, my progress, the motions and efforts I am making to further improve upon what I have, and feeling the lack of support featured where I most anticipate it--it's frustrating.  My control freak tells me to be more frazzled. Push harder. Learn faster to better market, best sell, advertise, jump through this hoop, that hoop, hey,