this thing

that runs through my heart

like a freight train

knocks me down

and lifts me up

at the same time

brings me joy

and reminds me

to stay open

be vulnerable

this thing

unnameable

random

vast

deep

it knows no bounds

reaches deep inside

blows me away

scatters the pieces

to the darkest edges

of the universe

and somehow

makes me whole

again

how do you do that?

(D James)