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Thanks barnette<3

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I’m so close to relapsing. I can feel it. I’m trying to do everything I can to not pick up that blade but it’s seriously getting so hard

Bre☾𖤓 wrote: "I’m so close to relapsing. I can feel it. I’m trying to do everything I can to not pick up that blade but it’s seriously getting so hard"

What's going on that's pushing you to that??

Honestly? idek, it’s just like my mind. It’s just so loud all the time and the only way it stops is if my body’s hurting, it’s like if my body’s in pain then my mind is finally quiet

I'm so sorry you've been feeling like that. Sometimes when I used to feel like that I would go for a walk, take slow deep breaths, listen to uplifting music, journal, draw, color, read a book, and or just shower (helps your brain reset to a state of cleanliness and just imagine the water is washing away all of your stress).

sending lots of hugs. 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

My minds just so loud all the time, it never stops, I try to keep myself distracted as much as possible but the second I’m alone it just won’t stop. It’s so loud and there are so many thoughts that will just never stop, they’ll stop if there’s pain though that’s the only time, my body needs to feel pain in order to quiet all of the noise in my mind

Thank you Khadijah🫂

ok.

Private message me.

Bre☾𖤓 wrote: "Thank you Khadijah🫂"

You're welcome.

I genuinely understand that so much. I have ADHD and my brain never. shuts. up. Do you have ADHD or anxiety or know the cause of the noise? If so, medication can really help with that if that's an option for you.

Please try to find ways to distract yourself and quiet your brain without hurting yourself. It's not worth it in the long run and could lead to far worse outcomes for you. Listening to loud music (rock, nu-metal, pop-rock) has really helped me, could that work for you?

Listening to loud music usually makes it worse for me, it’s like it speeds up my thoughts instead of quieting them or something.

I don’t have diagnosed ADHD or Anxiety but I’m almost a hundred percent sure I have anxiety, idk about adhd though but people have thought that I have it, but medicine isn’t an option because my mom doesn’t believe me whenever I tell her that I have ocd or anxiety plus she always says “well it doesn’t matter if you do because I’m not medicating you for it anyway” even though she literally takes medicine for her anxiety…

She’s a very “double standards” type of person (and lowkey sexiest)

I usually try to distract myself as much as possible but sometimes it’s just hard yk? I’ve been clean for 1 year, 9 months, and 21 days, ive been distracting myself for this long so ig it’s working but some days are just really hard and noise is extra loud

Bre☾𖤓 wrote: "Listening to loud music usually makes it worse for me, it’s like it speeds up my thoughts instead of quieting them or something.

I don’t have diagnosed ADHD or Anxiety but I’m almost a hundred pe..."

That sucks I'm so sorry

Bre☾𖤓 wrote: "I usually try to distract myself as much as possible but sometimes it’s just hard yk? I’ve been clean for 1 year, 9 months, and 21 days, ive been distracting myself for this long so ig it’s working..."

Yeah. That streak is amazing I'm really proud of you 😭 just keep putting off breaking your streak and find things to make you happy, I wish I had better advice but I'll keep thinking I'm sorry, stay strong.

Thank you barnie

AGGHHHHHHHH I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO SCREAM AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS!!!!!!

I ate a bowl of pasta today and I feel so disgusting. I wanna throw up so bad, just thinking about it. I just feel so disgusted with myself

You are NOT disgusting ml. 🫂

Bre☾𖤓 wrote: "I ate a bowl of pasta today and I feel so disgusting. I wanna throw up so bad, just thinking about it. I just feel so disgusted with myself"

I get that so much, but you are no disgusting, your body deserves and needs food and you should never feel bad for providing yourself with that.

Having a mother that can’t admit to being in the wrong is so exhausting. Like wdym we’re having a fight because you can’t admit that I’m right and you’re not? I’m crying and you’re yelling at me because you think I’m trying to ‘act’ older than I am instead of just admitting that I AM this age? You’re seriously yelling AT ME because you think I’m trying to ‘act’ more mature just because I have a friend that is SLIGHTLY older than me? Spoiler alert I am mature, people think I’m 20 when I’m 16 just because of how mature I am, and you CONSTANTLY tell me how mature I am and that I could run our whole household if I had to. And yk the stupidest thing is that she knows how mature I am, she just can’t accept it. She’s told me countless times how mature and smart and capable I am but when it really comes down to it she doesn’t act like I am. Actions speak louder than words and her words aren’t adding up with her actions.

She keeps trying to blame everything on my friend when none of it is her fault. It’s just that my mom wants to keep me in this little bubble of her, my family, and 1 friend. That’s it. She always has called me her mini me and now that I’m older it genuinely pisses me off sm, like yeah yk I am a lot like her but I’m also a lot NOT like her. When I was little I always acted like her ig and now that I don’t it’s almost like she doesn’t like me anymore. Now that I’m older and have a mind of my own and i actually think for myself and have my own opinions and views it’s like she doesn’t like it. She’s always ALWAYS told me to be who I am and to think for myself and to KNOW WHO I AM, but it’s like since I DO know who I am and I feel so strongly about it she doesn’t like it

And my mom always wonders why I keep things from her. SHE IS THE REASON! I can’t tell her how I’m feeling EVER, when I do it ends up in a fight or with her just giving me one of her ‘looks’ I hate those ‘looks’ sm like she looks at me like she can’t believe I’m her child, like she can’t believe I’m actually hers. It’s like she’s disappointed

I’m just so done. I’m completely over everything and just really don’t wanna be here right now.

I get that so much, I'm sorry you have to deal with that. Don't give up though, keep fighting back against her. She'll never change but don't let her win, and hold on until you can move out and live your own life. Stay strong.

my eyes are just so blurry and my arm is killing me omg

Oh my gosh I’m so exhaustedddddd

I hate anxiety attacks like why am I just sitting here then all of sudden I start freaking tf out

Bre☾𖤓 wrote: "I hate anxiety attacks like why am I just sitting here then all of sudden I start freaking tf out"

I know, they suck :( Is there something that personally helps you best when you start feeling anxious? For me its like listening to music and just distracting myself

Nopee nothing helps me

I try to distract myself but it never works and I end up freaking out more

My whole body hurts. I’m just so tired and so done.

Bre☾𖤓 wrote: "My whole body hurts. I’m just so tired and so done."

I'm so sorry that's happening to you ml <3❤🫂

Bre☾𖤓 wrote: "My whole body hurts. I’m just so tired and so done."

ugh I relate to that sm… I’m so sorry, if you ever need to talk I’m always here 🤍

@sydney 🫂🩷

Ava: thanks av, same to you🫂❤️

My best friend just randomly called me and was outside my house😭 i literally love her sm she came in and we ate pancakes and went to the store to buy syrup and I think we’re going to a pumpkin patch on Wednesday🤭

And she was giving me all the tea abt her friends and this guy she’s talking to rn and I was giving her the tea abt my man that’s not my man but will hopefully be my man visiting in April or May

It was honestly so amazing, I just love her so much😭🤭

she sounds like a best friend u should keep!

I really wish she could’ve stayed longer tho, i seriously miss her sm but at least i got to see herrrr, she was only here for like an hour cuz she had to go to a football game with her dad😔 (im coming for you Mr Sean😾)

awwwww well i bet she loves u just as much as u love her

@luna SHE ISSS!! We’ve been besties since we were 2 so I think like 14 ish years or 13 or something idkkk but i literally love this girl sm like she’s not even my bsf atp she’s literally my sister

i bet yall r long lost sisters

Ahh we definitely are heheh like I call her parents my second parents and she calls mine her second parents like we’re straight up family atp

And it’s also like rlly funny cuz when we were little we looked SO MUCH a like, like people thought that we were cousins or sisters it was honestly so funny

omg, if i had a best friend like that, i would like, 'you've been where? with who?" everyday

Bre☾𖤓 wrote: "My best friend just randomly called me and was outside my house😭 i literally love her sm she came in and we ate pancakes and went to the store to buy syrup and I think we’re going to a pumpkin patc..."

Aw dude that's amazing!!!

So happy you have a friend like that <3