“It's not like, as the term "masking" seems to evoke, there's a superficial layer of actions and appearances that I can remove and instantly improve my life. I don't have a mask I can remove; I have a multiheaded, deeply embedded parasite. It's probably killing me, but it's also kept me alive, and I don't know how much I can remove and still survive. I'm not completely sure where it ends and I begin at this point.”