“I don't know whether it was something I actually wanted, or whether it was something I got frustrated with myself for not wanting .Did I get bored of myself? Did I become too familiar with the rhythms of single life? Did I start to believe what everyone was telling me? That I was going to run out of time and get left behind? OR was it that I thought that being in a relationship might prove something ? That I wasn't unfeminine or unlovable or incapable of being a grown-up? That I was, in fact, perfectly normal like everyone else.”