“It feels like I’m drowning just off shore but no one can see me struggling to stay afloat. I’ve been sinking my whole life, occasionally managing to bob to the surface until the current of misery drags me back under. I don’t want to fight for air anymore. I want to get out. Swim to shore. Live on dry land and accept the fact I might have to dip my toe back into the water every once in a while. I want…I want to fight.”