Dont Be Shy™ discussion

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Well well, I hope I can keep up on this one faster than my other journals. (Yes, I am an excessive writer). As a summary of who I am, I guess you could say I am a little on the rough edges but with a big heart. I have problems but doesn't everyone? No, I am not a sociopath or a killer or anything in the book of crimes. What I hope to write down is advice to myself or other readers who are reading through this. (Don't think I can't see you people. I got my eyes on you. :P) I also hope to write down poetry and what not and maybe even a bit of random stuff. But till then, this has been the introduction.

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It hurts to loose friends. A hole is left burning inside of you, aching and wondering what went wrong. I want to cry but I know I must stay strong for myself. It is a constant argument in my head. Especially the part about telling myself it is not my fault.

I don't get why friends leave without saying a word, why they start to lie about the simplest things. What did they find that made them not care anymore? It hurts to know that the person you talked to everyday suddenly starts treating you like you are some type of scrap metal. I wish I understood why my friend changed, why he won't tell me what happened. I guess I just have to realize it is okay to move on.

The thing is, I know that it is not my fault they changed. I know I haven't done anything wrong. I have always been there for my friend. It is just hard to let go but I know that with every friend comes someone that will make you feel twice as better as last time. For now, I have to focus on the people I have, do more things with them, and let go of the past. The past can be your enemy if it sticks around too long.

If you may be going through the same thing, my advice is to cry it out but know you are still strong and know that life goes on. Life is a gift, do not waste it away dwelling on the past.