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Not Knowing Anything
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I have lost myself more times than I have said hello.

I have apologized for reasons that don't exist.

I have broken into tiny pieces

I have cried

I have faked smiles

And as that song says yes they get easier to fake

but, they are still hard

People can notice it through your eyes

I notice it for other people but, nobody ever notices for me because nobody loves me

Nobody needs me

When you says those words you lie to yourself because you are needed

Maybe you haven't found your reason yet

or maybe you never will

Maybe you can make the world better again

Maybe you can't

I don't know

That is both the pain and beauty of living

Not knowing anything.

YOU ARE LOVED
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No matter how hard people hurt you. No matter how many times people make you feel sad or upset or angry. No that one day and there will be a day when you will feel happy or at least okay. Where you won't feel like everyone is always against you. When you want to feel loved know that you are. Because I have been lied to and I have been broken but, in the end we all go through a little pain to make it that far. I am still on my journey and hopefully I won't have any regrets because I try to be kind and I try to put on a smile for the people around me because it is important that even if I'm upset I can make everyone at least okay maybe even better.

Bullying
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Yes, it does exist.

Yes, not everyone fakes it.

Yes, people do care about this.

I have been bullied and I have been hurt but, a certain person helped me want to spread the word and I know I don't have a lot of followers and not a lot of my followers read my story but, this is really important.

Bullies, why do they bully?

They do it for so may reasons.

Because they have been bullied.

They don't no how to be kind.

That's how they were raised.

And there are so may reasons I could just go on and on.

So, the next time you want to say bullies don't exist. Just stop. Your lying to yourself and everybody else because you don't understand.I won't force you to understand because personally that would just be wasting my time. I will ask for you to know that it is real and spread the word and tell other that it is real.

Perfect
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This word has a meaning that is nonexistent. And in my opinion I feel that everyone tries to be perfect even if they don't realize it for themselves. I try to be perfect on an everyday basis even though I know it does not exist. It is one of my many flaws.

I try hard to impress people, to seem happy all the time, and to look like a good role model. I am conceited. I brag about myself and then I feel extremely bad after I do it. My problem is nobody ever corrects me so I started to think it is fine but, it's not.

All humans try to be perfect no matter if they realize it or not. You can believe me or not it's not like I really care if you agree because we are two different people with two different views in two different lives.

Hidden Beauty/Ugliness
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Hidden beauty is called hidden for a reason. You have to look deep inside a person to find it. It is known to be hidden because it is really far deep inside a person. There could also be hidden ugliness. Someone who is beautiful on the outside but is a cruel, horrible, rude person on the inside.

Don't know what I am probably never will because I don't care. The whole point of this rant is for me to tell you not to judge people on the outside but on the inside. And yes I know that gets said a lot but, I'll keep saying it because not many are listening. So, please and notice that I said please don't judge people from the outside but from the inside because they may have hidden beauty or hidden ugliness.

Lies
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There are many reasons people lie. To protect one another. To avoid getting in trouble. Because those are the words that escape their mouth as they speak even though they wanted so bad to tell the truth. Have you ever lied? Don't lie to yourself and lying to yourself does count. It is only okay to lie when there is a reason strong enough to just remember that because lying can either break you or it can help you. It depends on how well you play your cards and what you are lying about. If your lying about something stupid like you didn't stole the last cookie out of the cookie jar and you did then that is something stupid and your wasting time. Only lie if it is truly necessarily for a good reason, a good cause.

So far most of my rants haven't been very long but, this is only the beginning of the thoughts that roam my head and if you keep reading you'll get to see more into my mind. And I warn you it will be a dangerous experiment.