Lord of Shadows question

I just don't know what to think. I love Emma and Julian together but them being parabatai complicates things. The decision they made together when they were 12 years old turned out to be the worse decision in their lives. No matter what they do, they can't suppress their feelings for each other.

I'm just waiting for Queen of Air and Darkness to come out. I really hope Cassie doesn't make the book more painful then it has to be.