I lay down and weep, My heart in a grave, Lost in the deep, Alone and in a daze.
I cry and I sob My tears don’t subside I’ve tried to conceal, But the pains blind my eyes.
My doubts influence my mind at last They laugh and they sneer at my act I stifle new sobs as I see they were right, I am who I am, alone in the night
No! My core screams, loud as the sea My brain conflicts with surging cries I struggle to choose which side to support The doubting black veil or the vast bright blue sky?
The answer seems clear to all except me, They giggle and jeer at my turmoil. They all tell me “fool, the answer is here” I ignore their cruel looks and begin to decide.
I finally choose both, with a heart of bright light, The wise cautions of doubt I will heed, not as an anchor but as a great wind warning me when to proceed.
With the light of my soul, And the guide of my doubt I live my life full and without regret I finally found my great lighthouse in the deep black of the night. (hide spoiler)]
Shivered, Not Alone
I lay down and weep,
My heart in a grave,
Lost in the deep,
Alone and in a daze.
I cry and I sob
My tears don’t subside
I’ve tried to conceal,
But the pains blind my eyes.
My doubts influence my mind at last
They laugh and they sneer at my act
I stifle new sobs as I see they were right,
I am who I am, alone in the night
No! My core screams, loud as the sea
My brain conflicts with surging cries
I struggle to choose which side to support
The doubting black veil or the vast bright blue sky?
The answer seems clear to all except me,
They giggle and jeer at my turmoil.
They all tell me “fool, the answer is here”
I ignore their cruel looks and begin to decide.
I finally choose both, with a heart of bright light,
The wise cautions of doubt I will heed,
not as an anchor but as a great wind
warning me when to proceed.
With the light of my soul,
And the guide of my doubt
I live my life full and without regret
I finally found my great lighthouse in the deep black of the night.
(hide spoiler)]