A Selection discussion

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Bella had asked some of the palace maids where she could find Killian's room. After he had left her room she wrote him a letter... She knocked on his door once she found it and waited. Was this a bad idea?

"Hi," Bella said. She hid the letter behind her back. "Can I come in?"

Bella walked over to hir bed without making eye contact or looking at him. Was she really going to do this? She sat down on Killian's bed and handed him the letter.

She watched as he opened the letter without a word.

Dear Killian,

I just wanted to apologize for everything that I did today.

First, I want to apologize for running into you at the library. I should have been looking where I was going. I hope the bruise isn’t that bad. I also want to apologize for asking about why you wanted to be a guard and then asking why you when you said but and then trailed off. That was something that you probably don’t tell many people. That seemed very personal and I am sorry if I was prying at you and made you feel like you had to tell me. I also wanna say that when I said you had nice eyes, I meant it. It might have been inappropriate to say but if we become friends I say stuff before I think and just speak the truth. I want to then add that I am sorry for saying I wasn’t pretty. That was something I should have kept to myself. You don’t wanna hear about my stupid insecurities. Now I wanna bring up that kiss… I am sorry for that. Once again I wasn’t thinking and was caught up in the moment from all the emotions and the crying. I made you uncomfortable and neither of us were ready. But I also am not completely sorry I did it, if you get that. I liked it. I know you said it wasn’t awful but I don’t fully believe that. Were you just trying to make me feel better? With that I want to also say that when I said that maybe we could try it again, I did truly want to try it again… Sorry if that makes you uncomfortable. I know you said that we just met and I know that, but there is something about you I can’t put my finger on. The entire time I have been at the palace all the other girls have been looking at me as just a competitor and everyone in the palace looks at me just like a silly little girl that just wants the title of princess and queen. I’ve only met you once but I got a feeling of butterflies in the pit of my stomach when you touched my hand and I don’t know why. I am sorry for saying that but I just needed to get that out. This letter is so humiliating, especially the end. I might not give this to you…

~ Bella Carroll

Bella read the thing and smiled, She took the pen and paper and wrote something back.

Dear Killian,
I am glad you told me and about that second kiss... I am fine if it doesn't happen until a year from now or even a month, a week, days or even now. But if that doesn't happen ever I'll be fine I understand. I do look forward to getting to know you Killian.

Bella finished writing and handed the paper back to him.

((Sorry my family needed me!))

((GTG my family needs me again I will be back in 2ish hours if we can continue then?))

Bella read the paper and looked at him sadly. She started to speak but Killian just pointed to the paper. Bella took the pen and mocked him by taking the pen lid of with her teeth and wrote,

Dear Killian,
Your welcome, why do they not understand?

((I thought he wrote the letter with his teeth lol))

((Are you there Brooke?))

Brooke wrote: "Kilian thought for a moment, trying to find the best way to explain.
Dear Bella
It's hard to explain honestly. Each person has a different reason."

Dear Killian,
I understand.

Bella paused before continuing to write

About that second kiss?

Brooke wrote: "Kilian thought for a moment, trying to find the best way to explain.
Dear Bella
It's hard to explain honestly. Each person has a different reason."

((Brooke? Are you there?))

((I GTG but I will be back on early tomorrow morning))

Brooke wrote: "⚡Mare wrote: "Brooke wrote: "Kilian thought for a moment, trying to find the best way to explain.
Dear Bella
It's hard to explain honestly. Each person has a different reason."

Dear Killian,
I und..."

I wanna.. Neverminded...

Bella handed him the paper.

Brooke wrote: "Killian wrote back.


Okay..."

Can I kiss you? I know what you're going to say know but I need to ask

Bella nervously handed him the paper.

Bella took the paper, wrote a response, handed him the paper, and stood up and headed to the door.

I shouldn't have asked. Sorry.

((I really like making her this way))

Brooke wrote: ""Then why did you?"
He didn't know what to do. He'd thought she'd understood and then... this."

"I don't know why. I just destroy every good thing that comes into my life. It starts out fine and then I destroy it," Bella started to reach for the door before she felt her knee's give out and she collapsed crying her hand on the doorknob. This was the second time she was crying in front of this guy. What he must think of her. Bella knew deep down why but she didn't want to admit it.

Brooke wrote: "Killian didn't know what to do. He didn't want to lead her on, but he couldn't leave her there. He grabbed a tissue and knelt down beside her, handing it to her."

"Don't come near me!" Bella practically screamed. She had her head in her hands. She was a mess. The little mascara her maids had persuaded her to put on was running down her face. She couldn't see anything because of the mess of tears.

Brooke wrote: "Killian didn't know what to do. He didn't want to lead her on, but he couldn't leave her there. He grabbed a tissue and knelt down beside her, handing it to her."

She just sat there shaking and repeating, "this can't be happening," over and over.

Brooke wrote: "Killian jerked back in surprise. He had no idea what to do."

Bella stopped talking and moved her hands from her head and just wrapped her arms around her upper body. She started rocking back and forth. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."

Bella nodded her head.

Bella moved her hand to take his but stopped. She managed to push herself up off the ground.

Brooke wrote: "Killian pulled his hand back opening the door."

Bella nodded her head as if to say thank you and started to walk out the door before stopping and turning around. She walked over the the pen and paper and started to write,

Dear Killian,
I'm sorry you had to see that. I should have know I was going to breakdown like that. It happens often after a... weird or hard day. You get what I mean. I'm used to it but you're the first one to see that and I ask that you don't tell anyone, okay? Once again I'm sorry. I don't know why I asked. I made you uncomfterable and that is extremely noticeable. That is probably the 90th time I said sorry to you today. I ask that after today we forget about this and please stay away from me for at least 3 days or longer. I wouldn't blame you if you stayed away from me forever. I just need some time to deal with the aftermath of that breakdown. For the last time I am sorry.
Bella

Bella handed him the paper and waited for him to read it. She decided that once he read it she was going to leave and stay away from him. For as long as possible.

She looked at him, saw him nod and said "I'm going to go now..."

Bella just walked out of the room and closed the door behind her.

((and it is over))