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I decided to make a new one. I've been feeling very depressed lately. I feel alone in what I'm going through. My medicine has been causing me to hallucinate and I'm unsure what's real. I just wish for it all to be okay. I have trouble sleeping before 12 am and all of my stuff has been taken away. My parents act like it's negatively affecting me, it isn't. I just wish to be okay. I've had horrible thoughts of self-harm and suicide but I always just stop. I want to be less scared. I'm scared of everything now. I'm getting bullied more for being trans. I just wish I was okay

It's so tempting. It's right there

hi

yoooo my famski my dudeski my broski

yo dude chill im just a hallucination wth

frickkkkkk

*sigh* today's a boring monday............................... *huff*

today's a boring monday............

just that bakugou is bae *sighs in "just normal teenage stanning. I can see why you like my hero academia"*

*sighs in "why"*

oh, bakugou *sighs and blushes deeply* why can't you be real?

YOOOO THE THING STICKS TO MY COMPUTER

I dont know why im shocked it's metal

I finished Bojack Horseman and it was really good and yeah

I miss my old life. I got to be alone until 7 most of the time. I got to stay up talking to friends. I wasn't as bad.

*relates*

Thoughts of self harm have been consuming my thoughts. I'll think about how horrible I am or how I don't deserve anything in my life and I just end up seeing it then it's all I can think about. I deserve it. I deserve the worst.

Ugh I also have a horrible headache that's been going on for an hour or so

I hate headaches

I hate when I'm listening to a song and can only relate to a few parts of it

youre sooo cool smh

thank you alice i agree

Ahah I'm so cool I might tell my therapist I'm suicidal ahahah

Sure my mom will know then but like eh

Sunkissed by Khai Dreams is a really nice song

I feel like a bad person, but I don't know why.

Suicide and self-harm have been overwhelming my thoughts

I SPILLED COFFEE ON mY PEROGIES

They act like I don't have feelings. They act like I have fucking control over myself. I don't know what I'm ever going to do. Most of the time that I don't do things I want to do those things. I just want to work on keeping myself alive but you idiots have to go any mess everything up then not think about how I'm feeling. If you're so good at telling my emotions how come you don't understand when I get small and quiet I don't want to continue this because I hate being yelled at. This is why I'm scared to tell you anything because I'm scared you're going to fucsking yell at me for just existing. You're a good mother but I'm scared of you. I hate it when you yell at me. I just want to live my life but when I make one mistake you throw a fit. You say the reason my stepdad asks me to walk to the dog is that "he's busy" he never is busy. He's always just doing something stupid and is too lazy to. I just want you guys to not get so upset over stupid little things and maybe just remind me. They both act like they understand my mental disabilities then pull this shit. My mom loves to say "I have adhd too," then how come you get upset at me for just common things of adhd? How come you get upset with me for being too depressed to do anything at all?

There was a door that had upset me. I realize now I kept mentioning how much I hate that door, but it was because it's the thing that made me realize "Oh my hallucinations didn't just go away" and that was upsetting. I just want to be normal and not see stuff. They were all on that door though and I feel like that's gonna make it seem like a lie. I just wish to be happy and fine.

I feel hot but cold.

CUZ YOU'RE HOT THEN YOU'RE COLD

NO I WAS HOT AND COLD AT THE SAME TIME

I've got a good heart albeit insane

I remember this one line, "Bathtime cool whip." All I can think about is how much I want to have a bubble bath and eat cool whip.

yo mama a hallucination

Your father

AH HOLY SHIT I ATE MINTS THAT WERENT ALTOIDS. I"M DYING AYNHNHHHHHH

I'm gonna keep eating them, yet i hate them

Now I'm eating spicy shit and I don't know why. I can kind of withstand pain spicy but when it's like spice spicy I suckkk

I forgot my journal. I cant think straight. What if like there's a hallucination that's in front of me or one that lasts for longer than like 2 seconds?

I typed that out at like 7:30 today but forgot to send it

stop acting ocd that's my thing loser

I'm collectnign the mental illnesses though

STOP IT THATS MY ILLNESS

YOU CAN HAVE ADHD/WHATEVER IS MAKING ME HALLUCINATE

TAKE YOUr PICK

adhd because im sorry but i still want to be at least a little bit sane

Damn fine

I gotta do operation on your brain and eat the dopamine