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Hi :)
Ooooo such pretty fish ohmygosh w h y do I love the fish so much
Random Update #1
I'm so tired rn I just want to sleep but my problem is I literally am unable to sleep during the day. Basically, my internal thoughts at the moment are:
Me: Sleeeeep I'm tired I want to sleeeeeep
Brain: No. It's still light out.
Me: But sleeeeeeeep
Brain: No.
I also have a headache, so that's not helping. And my dad wants me to take a walk with him while my siblings are at soccor so yyayayyayy *sarcasm*
Random Thought #1
'Petite' and 'baguette' are such beautiful French words
Random Update #2
So, I'm teaching myself French, which is cool because French is a beautiful language. But, I'm only on Basics 1 and oh, guess what, I've already been taught what the s-word is in French. At least I know how to ask for Wi-Fi though XD
Random Update #3
Only one more week until I'm seeing Harry Styles in concert :D I'm so exited ohmygosh
Random Thought #2
Frat boy Harry... Prince hair Harry... Long hair Harry... Every single era of Harry 🤩
Random Update #4
I'm going to miss school on Friday and I have a test in math that day aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh *screams internally* (view spoiler)
Random Update #5
Sooooo good news! The math test got moved so now I won't miss it :D I swear, the world is in my favor today I'm in such a good mood and it's kinda strange but I don't care what the heck is thisssss. Also, I can't wait to tell all my teachers I won't be at school on Friday because idk that just seems ✨s a t i s f y i n g✨ Y'know, maybe the reason I'm in such a good mood today is because my ELA teacher played two of my favorite songs this morning *cough* definitely not 1D and Harry Styles, definitely not *cough*
SpEAkInG of Harry Styles, I'M LEAVING FOR HIS CONCERT ON FRIDAY AND I CAN'T WAIT OHMYGOSH AAHAHHHAHAH (The concert is on Saturday buttttttt since I'm going to a different state for it, I'm going to do some ✨sightseeing✨ I literally can't wait I'm so exited ohmygosh ohmygosh :DDDDD
Letter to a fictional character #1
Dear Leo "I think my legs are broken." Fitz,
Thanks for the tears, trauma and ✨emotional instability✨
All the love,
ZoeKate
Random Thought #3
I officially hate SAQs :) They can kindly go d!e
Random Update #6
Helpppppppp me I have so many missing assignments for school bc I wasn't there on Friday helpppppppp DX At least I missed school for a good reason: A Harry Styles Concert
Sooooo last night we (As in me, my friend and our moms) went to the concert :DDDD Our outfits were beautiful, if I do say so myself. It was sooooo crowded though and no joke I was super ✨stressed✨ We got to our seats (The very top row) like an hour early, and then Jenny Lewis *retch* sang for thirty minutes before there was a thirty minute intermission/break
At eight, the lights went of and the intro thingy for the tour started playing, and I swear the screams were deafening (My own included). Harry came out and started singing Golden, and my hands were shaking so hard I almost dropped my phone, and I was literally crying ohmygosh (I also cried during Fine Line, which makes sense because it was the first time I'd ever heard it)
ALSO GUYS HE SANG TO BE SO LONELY AND IT WASN'T EVEN ON THE SET LIST :DDD Everyone was screaming and my friend and I were so confused until he sang the 'I'm just an arrogant son of a-" part and then we screamed too ahahahhaha XD I think ✨Fine Line✨ and ✨To Be So Lonely✨ are my favorite Harry Styles songs now
When he sang Kiwi was really good too because the whole arena got even more chaotic XD Kiwi is such a good song, even if it's a bit... you know (If you know, you know)
ANd earlier when I was listening to Canyon Moon I came to a sudden realization (Here goes): So, you know the line that goes 'I heard Jenny saying, "Go get the kids from school"' Welllllllll one time Louis (Back in the days of One Direction :'( ) introduced himself as Jennifer (Which Jenny is short for), and that same day Harry tweeted that he had a girlfriend named Jennifer :DD *mike drop* IF YOU KNOW YOU KNOW WHERE ARE ALL THE LARRIES AT
So yeah, that was my weekend :D
Random Writing #1
Time flies when you're having fun,
time, please stop going by,
my life has only just begun
A moment ago, I was twelve,
I blink, and I'm a teen,
The hands of the clock move too fast
I have to make the seconds last
Nostaligia over those days, months, years,
where time seemed to blur,
I lived those moments, I remember,
but looking back, they're on fast foward
Stop the clock, take a breath,
make the world go still,
wait, enjoy the moment,
it won't be long until,
I'm old and grey,
withered with age,
Wishing I had more,
more time,
more memories,
more life to live,
I blink, and the world fades
About me #1:
The smell of raw pumpkin makes me want to ✨vomit✨
Song Lyrics #1:
Sunflower Vol. 6 - Harry Styles
🌻Sunflower
Sunflower
My eyes, want you more than a melody
Let me inside
Wish I could get to know you 🌻
🌻Sunflowers
Sometimes
Keep it sweet in your memory
I was just tongue-tied🌻
🌻I don't wanna make you feel bad
But I've been trying hard not to talk to you
Sunflower (Sunflower, sunflower)🌻
🌻I couldn't want you any more
Kiss in the kitchen like it's a dance floor
I couldn't want you any more tonight
(Tonight, tonight, tonight)🌻
🌻Wondering headshake
Tired eyes are the death of me
Mouthful of toothpaste
Before I got to know you🌻
🌻I've got your face
Hung up high in the gallery
I love this shade
(Sunflower, sunflower)🌻
🌻Your flowers just died
Plant new seeds in the melody
Let me inside, I wanna get to know you🌻
🌻I don't wanna make you feel bad
But I've been trying hard not to act a fool
Sunflower (Sunflower, sunflower)🌻
🌻I couldn't want you any more
Kiss in the kitchen like it's a dance floor
I couldn't want you any more tonight
(Tonight, tonight, tonight)
I couldn't want you any more
Kids in the kitchen listen to dance hall
I couldn't want you any more tonight🌻
🌻Sunflower
My eyes, want you more than a melody
Let me inside
Wish I could get to know you🌻
🌻Sunflowers just died
Keep it sweet in your memory
I'm still tongue-tied
Sunflower, sunflower🌻
🌻Sunflower, sunflower
Sunflower, sunflower
Ayy, woo, ow🌻
🌻Woo-woo, woo, woo-woo, woo
Woo-woo, woo, woo-woo, woo
Woo-woo, woo, woo-woo, woo
Yeah
Ooh-woo, ooh-ooh
Doo, doo, doo, doo, doo, doo, doo, doo🌻
Random Update #8:
Wowowow ok this is going to be long so prepare yourselves XD
FIrst thing, HARRY STYLES IS IN THE NEW MARVEL MOVIE ETERNALS AAAAHHHHH I'm so exited I can't even I was sCREaMing for a full five minutes at least and running around like an insane idiot for at least twenty ohmygosh AHAAAAAA When my friend (also a Harry fan, I'm going to call her B because she's going to show up a lot) texted me I screamed and I think my exact words were "HARRY EDWARD STYLES IS IN A MARVEL MOVIE PRAISE JESUS"
Second thing, it's story time featuring my non-existent love life yayyyyyy SO anyways yesterday I was in band, and the percussionists (I'll call them idiot 1 and less-of-an-idiot 2) blocked of the way to my seat with their drums and music stands as usual. I really don't care, I go through that way anyways, because 1. I'm not about to walk all the way around the risers and 2. I love to annoy them hehehheheh. On my way to put away my flute (Yeah, I play flute, news flash), I walked through their so called 'wall' (I'm tiny, so it doesn't really work well XD) and put away my flute, and less-of-an-idiot 2 went "WHY." as always, and I said "To spite you" with a sassy smirk because band class makes me sassy and salty and extra sarcastic So then less-of-an-idiot 2 said "Next time I'm going to punch you." and I went "I dare you." I knew he wouldn't because he'd get a referal, and because he's not the type to do that. THen idiot 1 goes "He wouldn't do that, he likes you. He told me he likes you." As I walked back through to get my backpack and stuff. Then when I looked back I could tell less-of-an-idiot 2's face was red, even though he's was wearing a mask. SO NOW I'M FREAKING OUT (INTERNALLY) BECAUSE WHAT IF HE DOES I DID GET THE FEELING THAT HE DID BUT AH HECK NO I DON'T NEED THAT DRAMA.
So anyways, in other news, I learned how to purl stitch, so I can start on my knitting project (*cough* The Harry Styles cardigan *cough*)
Random Update #9:
Soooooo I went to the craft store on Friday night to get yarn for my project, and HOLY CRAP THAT'S A LOT OF YARN. I think I might die of old age before I finish that cardigan. I took the yarn over to my grandparent's house because I was staying the night over there my grandma was like. 'That's just for one sweater? That's going to be a big sweater' and I was like 'yeah I know'
So now I have to wind all the yarn into balls instead of those weird loopy oval things they come in, and then I can get started!
Random Update #10:
Happy Halloween (Or should I say Harryween)! I hope you have an amazing time today, whether you're going to a party or trick or treating! Stay safe :)
Now time for what this update is really about: Harry Styles (Are you surprised?) So last night was the first night of Harryween, and I didn't go, but my friend B and I watched a livestream of it on instagram and it was amazingggggg. HE WAS WEARING A DOROTHY COSTUME AND HIS BAND WAS DRESSED AS THE OTHER CHRACTERS!!! HE SANG SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW!!! HE WAS WEARING A DRESS AND BLUSH AND MASCARA!!! HE CLICKED HIS HEELS (Yes, he was wearing heeled sparkly red shoes) TOGETHER LIKE DOROTHY DID IN THE MOVIE AAAAHHHHHHH!!! HE HAD A BASKET AND A LITTLE STUFFED TOTO!!! (I'm very exited about this, in case you couldn't tell) And the best part was that my friend and I swear on our lives that Louis was there. There was one of those private viewing boxes nearish the stage and the light was on and there was a person *cough* Louis *cough* in there. The person filming the livestream didn't record the box (No offence but yes offence because they're an idiot) but one time the camera stayed on the box for a few seconds and B swore that she could see he was wearing the green 28 jersey and I died because he was wearing it I swear on my life. AND HARRY KEPT LOOKING UP AT THE BOX AND I THINK HE POINTED AT IT AND WAVED AND I'M SCREAMING BECAUSE LARRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYY. Also, there were a bunch of cameras filming so I think there's going to be a Harryween/HSLOT documentary I can't aahhhhhhhhhhhhh (B was like 'What if this is their coming out documentary' and I screamed so loud because yesssss Larry screw Oliva Wilde she can go (view spoiler))
Random Writing #2:
We were puppets, marionettes,
Not living, just going through the steps,
They pulled our strings taut,
They said 'Be something that you're not'
(Work in Progress)
Days to Remember #1:
09/25/2021 - Chicago, Il - United Center
- My first ever concert
- Also a Harry Styles Love on Tour concert (Chicago night 2)
- The first time I heard To Be So Lonely, Cherry, and Fine Line
- HARRY SANG TBSL! AND IT WASN'T ON THE SET LIST! AND IT WAS THE FIRST SHOW OF THE TOUR HE SANG IT AT
- I cried, during Golden and during Fine Line
- With my mom, sister, best friend, best friend's mom (basically my second mom) and my aunt
- We were at the very very top row, so Harry was so so so so small
- My hands were shaking uncontrollably when he first came on. The video I took is hilarious because you can barely see anything I was shaking so bad
- We all wore black Harry Styles Fine Line shirts with white lettering, white jeans, and red heart glasses like the ones Harry wore in the WMS music video. I also had cherry shaped earrings
- We got merch the day before the concert! I got a TPWK pullover/crewneck thingie and a poster. I'm pretty sure we stood in line for at least forty five minutes
Random Update #11:
Sooooo I made the stupid mistake of telling my friends about Cam (Aka less-of-an-idiot 2). Guess who's the idiot now? My sister (A) told me that she told my friend (V) and I believed her, like an idiot, so I texted V and was like 'So did A really tell you? Or was she lying?' SPOILER ALERT: A was lying. So then V made me tell her what I talking about. I told her that there's someone in our school who supposedly likes me and naturally she was like 'Ohhhhh who?' I made her guess, because I'm evil like that. Thirty minutes later, after many vague clues, and she still has no idea who I'm talking about. So she texts my other friend (C) and after another thirty minutes C texts in our group chat and goes '😈CAM IS IT 😈' and I instantly texted back with 'V I'M GOING TO KILL YOU *kn!fe emoji kn!fe emoji kn!fe emoji*' Soooooo now they both know and V is threating to talk to Cam and ask if he really likes me soooooo I'm going to dieeeeeeeee DX I told V not to, obviously, because I don't need that ✨drama✨
So anyways, how's your life? Mine is currently, shall we say, chaotic
Random Thought #4
Every time Cam and I make eye contact I want to scream ahhhhhh (Not in like a good way like a panic way)
Does anyone have any advice for my current, shall we say, relationship situation? Honestly I'll take all the help I can get
Get My Life Together™ #1
New Sleep Schedule:
Monday: 6:00 am wake up, 10:00 pm go to sleep
Tuesday: 6:00 am wake up, 10:00 pm go to sleep
Wednesday: 6:00 am wake up, 10:00 pm go to sleep
Thursday: 6:00 am wake up, 10:00 pm go to sleep
Friday: 6:00 am wake up, 12:00 am go to sleep
Saturday: 8:00 am wake up, 12:00 am go to sleep
Sunday: 8:00 am wake up, 10:00 pm go to sleep
Secrets I will take to the grave #1
One time in fourth grade I said the f-word (Before I knew it was a bad word and before I knew what it meant)
Random Update #12
There's a winter dance at my school and I'm freaking out because 1. What if Cam asks me but at the same time what if he doesn't and 2. I don't know what to wear (Any ideas?) Alsoooooo I don't even know if I want to go but my friends will probably come to my house and drag me to the dance if I don't aaaaaahhhhhhh
I'm just going to not think about it. I'm just going to think about Harry Styles, and imagine meeting all of One Direction, and the Louis Tomlinson concert in February, and books, and fictional worlds where nothing is STRESSFUL
Also, in other news, did you know people in the Netherlands use diseases as curse words?
Random Update #13
- Currently buried under a mountain of homework (Including like three projects), but procrastinating on Goodreads
- I have curtain bangs now (:D), but I'm still figuring out how to style them
- I have a piano recital in December and I'm freaking out but trying not to think about it
- CAM AND I KEEP MAKING EYE CONTACT AND I'M FREAKING OUT ALSO I'M 98.7% SURE HE ACTUALLY DOES LIKE ME AND I'M INTERNALLY SCREAMING
- All of my friends know about Cam. So does my dad. And my sister. AND they both know what he looks like now
- I saw my brother hug his 'friend' (If you know what I mean) earlier and I might have melted
- CAN IT PLEASE BE FEBRUARY ALREADY I WANT TO SEE LOUIS
- Trying to get my life together but it's not working aaahhhhhhhhh
- I want to ask my mom if I can wear a little bit of makeup (Literally lip gloss and possibly mascara) and get skincare stuff but I don't know howwwwwwwww aaaahhhh
- 99.9% sure I have anxiety
Anywaysssssss I have things to do so bye
Random Update #14
Sooooo Cam and I keep making eye contact but it's less *panic panic aaahhhhh what do I do* and more *screams but in a kinda good way but still a little panic* One of my classmates was miming playing the marimba to try and get Cam to play it and I just looked at him and kinda laughed and he kinda laughted to and I might have died but I don't know if it's in a good way or a bad way yet but I literally cannot stop thinking about him and aaahhhhhhhhh I don't know what to do or if I want him to ask me to the dance or if I want him to actually tell me he likes me aaaaahhhhhhhhhh (Also, my mom knows about him now -v-)
On another note, my band teacher wants me to try out for region band (According to him, I play the flute really well) and I don't know if I want to because you have to play in front of a room full of other people (That play your same instrument) as well as judges and I'm already bad enough at solos infront of just my band class sooooooooo idk what to do
List #1
Things I daydream about way too often:
- Harry Styles
- Dating Harry Styles
- Meeting Harry Styles
- One Direction reunion
- Hugging Harry Styles
- Going to 5/5 members of 1D concerts
- Meeting 5/5 members of 1D
- Teaching my future/imaginary boyfriend how to waltz
- Cam (I'm not even joking aaaahhhhhhh)
- A perfect, impossible, never going to happen relationship
- Newt from Maze Runner
- HUGGING HARRY STYLES
- Talking to Harry Styles
- Being within five feet of Harry Styles
- Various romantic scenarios
- Various fictional words
- Being inside of various fictional worlds
Random Update #15
Sooooooooo Cam and I actually talk to each other now and aaahhhhhhhhhh it's time to ✨spill✨ ✨some✨ ✨tea✨
Two days ago in band class, the other people were being idiots as usual and forgeting to count and pay attention to the rhythm. They (not we, they. I was counting correctly, thank you very much) messed up so my band teacher stopped us and under my breath (but still very loudly) I went 'Oh my god, it's called a quarter rest you idiots' and Cam hears me and HE LAUGHS
And then today, I got my flute and my music and was going back through the little hallway of precussion and Cam opens the door of the cabinet that holds the mallets and sticks ON PURPOSE JUST TO MAKE ME WAIT and I was just like 'Alright then, I'll wait.' and he was taking his time so I just sidestepped and went through the barrier of precussion and sat down and then Cam looked at me and went 'Maybe if you got here earlier you wouldn't have to wait' and I was like 'Well Mrs. B (one of our teachers) doesn't let us go until the second bell and Cam said 'That sounds like a personal problem' and I just kinda laughed but internally I was ✨screaming✨
Also, apparently he has a marimba at his house? Our band teacher told us to take our instruments home over Thanksgiving break and I was like 'You're lucky you don't have to take your instrument home' and Cam said 'I have a marimba at my house actually' and I was like 'You have a marimaba?!' and he just nodded and that's the story of how I found out Cam has a marimba at his house and how he's SO GOOD AT PLAYING IT LIKE WHAT THE HECK
On another related note, V keeps saying she's going to talk to him and I asked her what she would say and she said 'I'd ask him if he really likes you, and I'd tell him that if he asked you to the dance you would probably say yes' (Which is technically true but stilllll if she talks to him I'll literally d!e) LIKE THE DANCE IS ON DECEMBER 10TH IF YOU'RE GOING TO ASK ME ASK ME DON'T BE LIKE MY BROTHER AND WAIT UNTIL THE WEEK OF TO ASK (He literally waited until the Monday before to ask his 'friend' (They're more than friends despite the fact they both deny it but it's obviousss) I'm not even kidding)
Note to self: Find a dress for the dance
Anyways byeeeee time for sleep
Random Thought #5
J'ai besoin de dormir. Bonne nuit. Beaux rêves <3
List #2
Things I want in a relationship (but are kinda unrealistic):
- Falling asleep while on the phone/Facetiming
- Slow dancing
- Him singing to me or vice versa
- The thing where you hug and you do the thing where you look like a koala and he just hugs you
- His hoodies (That's probably the most realistic)
- Sitting on the roof stargazing and just talking
- Introducing him to my favorite shows and movies and then we watch them together
- BOOKSTORE DATES AAAAAHHHHHH
(To be continued)
Random Update #16
Sooooo by friend B is going to Harry's Arkansas concert and she left for Arkansas today at six in the morning and she told me she and her mom are going to the merch store as soon as they get there and she's getting me more merch yayyayyyyyay
I'm going to text her at like five and ask her how much it was because I need to get over my heart attack and get the money before she gets back because I'm going to pay her back for the merch and I'm so scared that it's going to be like a hundred dollars but it's worth it so it's fine it's all good I (hopefully) won't d!e from shock but we'll see
Also, Fine Line makes me want to cry (But in like a cool way XD)
AND I FINALLY FOUND A FACE CLAIM FOR A CHARACTER I'VE BEEN WORKING ON FOR LIKE A WEEK PRAISE THE HEAVENS
List #3
Things Harry Styles has said that I quote daily:
- "What are we doing?"
- "It's not cOmPLiCaTed"
- "I'm tired and it's winter"
- "It's not on me sista"
- "I'm not feeling fabulous"
- "In like a- in like a- cool way"
- "SCREAM IF YOU WANNA GO FASTA"
- "Help me Jeffrey"
- "Two bannanas for a pound, three bananas for a eurooooo"
- "This is a family show! Or is ittttttt?"
- "Oh shut up."
- "Not important."
- "Get outta my kitchen."
- "You need to calm down. You need to stop that right now."
- "To spit or to swallow that is the question."
- "It's not about winners or losers but we won."
- "And don't eat yellow snow."
- "I love pizza bro."
- "Simple, but effective."
- "Cute as a button, every single one of you."
- "London's quite... big."
- "Harryyy."
- "Physically, I'm fine. Emotionally, I'm bruised."
- "Pew pew."
- "Like I said, it's a fine line."
- *sassy American accent* "Waterrr"
- *frantic American accent* "Oh my God. I can't handle it. It's too much. Oh my God."
- "The handsome, the talented, the narcissistic, my personal favorite, Mr. Harry Styles."
- *very british accent* Yeehaw?
Random Update #17
My mom is mad at me because I told her the merch B got me (Literally a sweatshirt and a hoodie) cost $145 and I told her B was going to get me merch and I assumed it was fine but now she's upset and I'm like 'Well I'm sorry for wanting to have merch from something that's really important to me, and that my friend was nice enough to agree to get me merch' In September when we were in Chicago for my concert I wanted to get a different size sweatshirt but she practically made me get the size I didn't want because 'The other size would be too big' Yes, I'm tiny, but ask me if I care, I want to wear it as long as possible and I don't care if it's too big. So now she's mad and I'm mad and also I have to find $145 dollars in cash so yay, life is crappy
Weird crap I've said today #1
- "Put some lotion on, you crispy grandma"
I said this to myself at one in the morning after peeling off the skin on my fingers for five minutes straight
- "There's nothing more satisfying than a smooth potato."
I was peeling potatoes earlier to make mashed potatoes for thanksgiving and I just stopped and looked down at the potato in my hand and that kinda just came out
- "Yay, suffering."
I was talking to myself about going to my grandparent's house for Thanksgiving. With my entire family.
Random Thought #6
The sky is blue. The grass is green. Larry is real. I see no difference
Random Update #18
*In which I sound like a scared owl while playing flute, and almost vomit after running 4 ½ laps in gym*
Sooooooo today in band we had a kinda-sorta test on our scales, and today was the A♭ scale. Our band teacher had all of the students play, and of course I was DEAD LAST. By then I was like two seconds away from freaking out, and CAM WASN'T HELPING AT ALL. He literally told me 'You're going to be last' and kinda LAUGHED and I was like 'THAT'S NOT HELPING WITH MY STRESS' and he just gave me a thumbs up aaaahhhhhhhhhhhh so anyways my turn comes and I manage to play the scale (while sounding like a scared owl) without messing up and after I was done I kinda just died and Cam goes 'Good job' and then I kinda died again but internally this time. AND THEN MY HANDS WERE SHAKING FOR LIKE EIGHT MINUTES AFTER I WAS DONE. I noticed my hands were shaking and kinda lifted them in the air to make sure I wasn't imagining it (They were literally shaking so bad I could barely play) and Cam sees my hands and asks me if I'm ok and I'm like 'Yeah I'm fine' but aaaahhhhhh literally 99% sure he really does like me I'm literally screaming aaaaaaahhhhhhh
And then in gym we had to run outside and I ran 4 and a half laps in 10 minutes and I literally felt like I was either about to collapse or vomit, which was ✨fun✨ And then right after I had a meeting in the literal hottest classroom in the entire school, which was terrible.
Also, I have a band concert next Tuesaday, the school dance next Friday AND a piano recital next Sunday. I really really don't want to do the recital (I mean, did you see when I played flute in front of my band class? Imagine that, but like 3000 times worse) Yay. So fun. But at least Christmas break is in threeish weeks :)
Random Update #19
Ok wow it's been a hot minute.... time for an update about everything that has happened in my life in the last 2-ish weeks :)
Alright first things first, the band concert was fine. I lived. It's all good. My friends were there and so was Cam, because he's in band, and the whole time they were taunting me and I was like 'shut uppppp please' but did they shut up? No. Not at all
And then we had the dance on Friday. I must say, my outfit was pretty good. I had on a sky blue dress and my mom's (very low) heels, I had my nails painted AND my bangs actually didn't look a hot mess for once :D But Cam was there and we just kept looking at eachother but I didn't actually talk to him at all, and the whole time my friends were trying to get me to dance with him and I was like 'AH HECK NO' because *fear* Literally though, I almost hyperventilated because I was so scared, not even joking. The dance was still fun though, and I actually danced (What a shocker) with my friends and sorta taught V how to waltz?
And then my piano recital last Sunday went well. Y'know, I just almost panicked, but I lived :) I did hug my piano teacher, so that was akward, but it's fine -_-
OH AND I ALMOST FORGOT BUT IN BAND EITHER THIS WEEK OR LAST WEEK (I think it was last week) WE WERE DOING ANOTHER SCALE TEST ON THE CHROMATIC SCALE AND I ASKED IF I COULD DO IT IN THE MORNING INSTEAD OF IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE CLASS BECAUSE *FEAR* AND CAM WAS LIKE 'WHY DON'T YOU WANT TO DO IT IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE CLASS' AND I SAID 'BECAUSE IT STRESSES ME OUT' AND HE WAS LIKE 'WHY YOU'RE REALLY GOOD AT PLAYING FLUTE' AND I LEGIT DIED BUT IN LIKE A GOOD WAY
Also, Cam may or may not have given me M&Ms (He said he didn't like them, but one of my friends thinks he just wanted a reason to give them too me) AND he also waved bye to me as he was leaving last last friday (The 17th) and my friend E just kinda looked at me and I flopped down on the desk, my face BRIGHT RED and told her to shut up :)
Side Note: Is it bad that I want to start a journal to Cam to either give to him on our 1st anniversary (If we ever start dating XD) or on our wedding day (If we ever get married XDD) LIKE I LEGIT WANT TO DO IT SO BAD
Anywhooooo, Christmas was fun, I got lots of bookssssss yayayyyy :DDD I also got some clothes, candy, a watercolor set and fuzzy socks (I literally love fuzzy socks so much, not even joking) I also got piano music for Midnight Memories and Made in the A.M. and I have been playing Long Way Down and Infinity non-stop aahahhahaaa
Soooooo yeah, that's my life as of late :)
Random update #20
HAPPY NEW YEAR, ITS OFFICIALLY 2022 YEAAAAHHHHH
(Yes, I am well aware that I am 20 hours late, but I was at a friends house and couldn't get on GR until now XD)
So yeah, last night I pulled an all-nighter, cried over larry edits and fanfiction, and ate wayyyyy to much candy. Talk about starting the new year right lol.
But I'm actually going to write some resolutions and start a journal tomorrow, because I need to get my crap together
Anyways, hope you have an amazing year :)
Song Lyrics #2
The Night We Met - Lord Huron
I am not the only traveler
Who has not repaid his debt
I've been searching for a trail to follow again
Take me back to the night we met
And then I can tell myself
What the hell I'm supposed to do
And then I can tell myself
Not to ride along with you
I had all and then most of you
Some and now none of you
Take me back to the night we met
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
Haunted by the ghost of you
Oh, take me back to the night we met
When the night was full of terrors
And your eyes were filled with tears
When you had not touched me yet
Oh, take me back to the night we met
I had all and then most of you
Some and now none of you
Take me back to the night we met
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
Haunted by the ghost of you
Take me back to the night we met
Random Update #21
ONE MONTH UNTIL I SEE LOUIS I CAN'T WAIT AAAAHHHH
Anyways, I was just sitting in my living room a couple of minutes ago and I randomly thought about Cam and I swear my heart started to beat twice as fast and my hands were shaking for some reason what the heck is happening aaahhhhhhh
ALSO, I GO BACK TO SCHOOL ON WEDNESDAY I WANT TO CRY I DON'T WANT WINTER BREAK TO BE OVER ALSO I'M PRETTY SURE TWO OF MY FRIENDS WON'T BE THERE BC THEY BOTH HAVE COVID WHYYYYYYYY
Random thought #7:
My sister is deliberatly trying to piss me off today. Fun.
Random thought #8:
So is my mom, apparently. Yay. Sooooo fun.
Random thought #9:
They're both talking crap about me as I sit upstairs in my room. They must think I'm deaf, but nooooo, I can hear every word.
Random thought #10:
And they wonder why I stay upstairs so much 🙄
Random thought #11:
No, me, V and C are definitely not planning a trip to Europe for when we turn 18 and graduate from high school. Why do you ask?
Random Update #22
- I had a bit of a mental breakdown earlier, cried for a couple of hours then feel asleep, but it's all good now (Except for the fact that my eyes hurt really bad lol)
- Cam got a haircut. I don't know if I like it or not.
- CAM LIKES ONE DIRECTION LIKE HONESTLY JUST ASK ME OUT AT THIS POINT
- My annoying little sister told V that I like Cam, soooooo I'm never going to trust her again :)
Hi everyone, I'm Zoe :)
📖 I'm a veryyy nerdy bookworm, and I love love love to read! My favorite books would have to be Harry Potter, Maze Runner, the Lunar Chronicles, Percy Jackson and the Hunger Games. I talk about books a lot, just so you know. 📖
🎶 I have an obsession with music, and I listen to it whenever I can. My favorite artists and bands are One Direction, Harry Styles, Niall Horan, Louis Tomlinson, Shawn Mendes and Five Seconds of Summer 🎶
📝 Writing is a hobby of mine, though most stories are half finished and never will be finished, if I'm being honest. I love writing fanfiction (I have no shame), mostly reader-insert because that's just easy for me 📝
🎥 I love Marvel and StarWars movies!! My favorite Marvel movie is Avengers: Endgame and my favorite StarWars movie is The Rise of Skywalker. Some of my favorite TV shows are Agents of SHIELD and WandaVision. I also love the Maze Runner, Harry Potter and Hunger Games Movies. 🎥
📘 As for this journal, I'll probably have entries with a few of my thoughts, some short stories or poems, unfinished characters, aesthetics, song quotes, you name it! You can comment as long as it's relevant and not inappropriate!📘
Can't wait to talk to you all!!
ZoeKate 😊
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