Drama discussion

I'm scared of losing my friends losing everything. I think sometimes that i'm going insane and that no one cares is that true that i have that many problems that even the people i've known for years don't care that the people i've only known for one year understands me more then the people i've known since like 2cond grade wow thats sad i just don't know what 2 do

alexis we have known eachother for the longest time its hard to understand you when everyone changes

yea but i haven't changed just stopped hiding and pretending being fake is not my thing

i know it isent your thing but you just need to relax and take a breath of the beautiful air and stop hidding be happy dont pretend to be someone your not

i did stop being fake! thats what i'm saying is i am real this is me this is me i'm not that stupid happy girl i'm upset a lot and i'm trying so hard to find peace with all of the bad in me it's almost like i've shut out the good me the one that smiled but she did that to cover the tears thats not me anymore

every now and a again I relapse back to the old me it's not easy to let go of what you thought was the great life when you liked being mean it made me feel strong. When you were weak you got in peoples face for no reason thats what I would do but i've had a hard time letting go. Sure i in so many ways hate that girl. She couldn't laugh and mean it. she couldn't smile and mean it i can.

thats a poem i wrote

wow thats good

thanx only good cause it's true

ya

im so tierd on how people like valentines

me 2

ya i like it but people who are single hate it and wanna die its a time when those people are misrable

thanx that makes me feel much better. not

sorry i wasent pointing it at you :(

it ok me wrote letter to dalton i have to print it

okk i have to print mine too

kk

:)

heyyy so what did dalton think

idk he kinda idk i need to talk to him on the phone today i want to hang with him this weekand but idk

AWWW thats so nice tho when dalton got up to the part were you said i dont know why i dont date u his eyes got wide

Alexis, I think you should go to poetry readings and stuff.... Not to change the subject it's just I've read some of your poems and the things you write and I think it would be a great break for you and great for you to just let go and be yourself. Plus, you could meet new people who are into the same things that you like. And hear some new poems and writing to inspire you or just make you feel better. Honestly. I just realized that I'm the only one that commented u der this subject except you two........... Sorry!

Shelby wrote: "Alexis, I think you should go to poetry readings and stuff.... Not to change the subject it's just I've read some of your poems and the things you write and I think it would be a great break for yo..."yaa i say the same about her and the poems

Hahaha great minds think alike! ;)

ya

I'm afraid of anything and everything at the surface i seem cool and like everything is okay but at the seams i'm falling apart my life just took a turn for the worst. if you were to write a book about me i would be lots of pages long with all my problems.

i just want it to go away you know the pain and the hurt

ya we know alexis

Why are you guys talking about this stuff ??

umm because i needed to say it to someone so i did and now it's the past i have other problems now like not the past

What are the problems Alexis ??

things i need to deal with ok because if i don't i'll lose you guys as friends and i don't want that ok. yeah i've talked a lot about the "past" well heres an update the things you call the "past" isn't the past it's happening now ok and i just want it all to stop.

i think you guys should just let her talk okk and listen to what she has to say because she needs to let it and the hurt out dont make her hold it in and have her hate her self for everything you wounder why she gets mad every thing you said to her like omg stop talking about it that hurts her god just shut upnand let her talk

♫ sometimes theres things you can say to a guy and somethings you can't i might of said someting to him and messed it up. girls need to act like girls they shouldnt act like a boy they arnt boys they need to get that through their thick skull we dont need to change because of someones family im staying the same no matter what.. cheaters are chearters and if they wanna date that person they are cheating with then break up with the gurl dont hide it thats wat hurts the most. <3 paige merrill out

what happened

ill tell u on the phone

k

well actually alans mom said that i should be more tomboyish

what thats stupid

ya

What if i were to say that depression is taking over just when things started going uphill again they are now rolling back down into darkness.

My mom my bff and i'm afraid that i'm pushing the wrong ppl away.

Then talk to them alexis. you know we all love u :) <3