Walaa El-Bana

“I don’t know when it started.
I don’t know why it started.
I don’t know anything about anything except for the screaming.
My mother screaming when she realized she could no longer touch me. My father screaming when he realized what I’d done to my mother. My parents screaming when they’d lock me in my room and tell me I should be grateful. For their food. For their humane treatment of this thing that could not possibly be their child. For the yardstick they used to measure the distance I needed to keep away.
I ruined their lives, is what they said to me.
I stole their happiness. Destroyed my mother’s hope for ever having children again.
Couldn’t I see what I’d done, is what they’d ask me. Couldn’t I see that I’d ruined everything.
I tried so hard to fix what I’d ruined. I tried every single day to be what they wanted. I tried all the time to be better but I never really knew how.
I only know now that the scientists are wrong.
The world is flat.
I know because I was tossed right off the edge and I’ve been trying to hold on for 17 years. I’ve been trying to climb back up for 17 years but it’s nearly impossible to beat gravity when no one is willing to give you a hand.
When no one wants to risk touching you”
― Tahereh Mafi, Shatter Me

“It's not about never being angry, it's about how to be angry.”
― Journey B. Lee, 100 Quotes To Read When You Are Angry

“If you can't control your anger, someone else will try to control it for you.”
― Journey B. Lee, 100 Quotes To Read When You Are Angry

“And that’s the thing with lies: They’re much easier to believe when it’s an idea you like.”
― Kristen Perrin, How to Solve Your Own Murder