Elle

“If I loved her at twelve, I was too young to know what love was. If I loved her at fifteen, I was too isolated to know how to love anyone else. If I love her now, I don’t really know who she’s grown into well enough to love her. I’ve spent too long without her to love her in completion, to love this new map of her. All of this is true. I love her all the same.”
― Caitlin Devlin, The Real Deal

“She taught me to leave a hair in every Uber I took at night, just in case something went wrong with the tracking.”
― Caitlin Devlin, The Real Deal

“The nice thing is,’ she says, ‘You don’t actually have to be anything. You can work in a bookshop and take your sister to dance class and fall in love and drink wine in the street and watch the same film three times in one week, and it doesn’t have to be depressing or boring or like you’re not going anywhere, because you don’t have to go somewhere, you know?’ ‘I want to go into my thirties having achieved something.’ ‘Stay happy,’ she says. ‘That’s an achievement.”
― Caitlin Devlin, The Real Deal

“I sometimes feel I’m not built to be known intimately. I don’t think I would hold up upon close inspection. I want to know other people in great detail, to be able to predict every thought and choice and action. I don’t want them to know me at all.”
― Caitlin Devlin, The Real Deal