Alexandra

“The basement and music had become this incomprehensible landscape threatening to split me open. Like meeting God finally and learning he hates you.”
― B.R. Yeager, Negative Space

“The person suffering from loneliness anxiety is deeply suspicious. Even the slightest criticism hurts him. He often perceives non-existent deprecation in surface or tangential remarks. Because he feels such grave failure in everything he undertakes, because he constantly strives to raise his level of achievement and win praise and approval and at the same time employs devices and strategies which constantly alienate him from others, eventually he either gives up or responds with aggression to cover up his inner feeling of separation, anxiety, and despair.”
― Clark E. Moustakas, Loneliness

“The worst part about knowing anyone is knowing only that tiny sliver available to you.”
― B.R. Yeager, Negative Space

“Someday I’ll wake up and it’ll be like my life’s already over, because it’ll be dozens of years from now already and I’m still the same. Sets of mirrors facing each other, expanding space and me and every moment I’ve been here. Nobody knows me, because I haven’t left anything for them, and I can’t stand to look half of them in the eye.”
― B.R. Yeager, Negative Space