Ayla
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“When someone you love first dies, they're all you can see, aren't they? All you can hear?
Blotting everything else out.
That changes. They get quieter over the years. They still whisper to you sometimes, but the world get louder. You can see it and hear it again. There's a gap in it, where they used to be. But you get used to the gap; so used to it that you hardly see it.
And then some days, out of nowhere, you're making the tea or hanging out the washing or sitting on the bus and it's there again; that aching, empty space that will never be filled.”
― The Year of the Rat
Blotting everything else out.
That changes. They get quieter over the years. They still whisper to you sometimes, but the world get louder. You can see it and hear it again. There's a gap in it, where they used to be. But you get used to the gap; so used to it that you hardly see it.
And then some days, out of nowhere, you're making the tea or hanging out the washing or sitting on the bus and it's there again; that aching, empty space that will never be filled.”
― The Year of the Rat
“One day you will do things for me that you hate. That is what it means to be family.”
― Everything is Illuminated
― Everything is Illuminated
“I wish I were a girl again, half-savage and hardy, and free.”
― Wuthering Heights
― Wuthering Heights
“Be with me always - take any form - drive me mad! only do not leave me in this abyss, where I cannot find you! Oh, God! it is unutterable! I can not live without my life! I can not live without my soul!”
― Wuthering Heights
― Wuthering Heights
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