Pallavi

“Today is the day! No more messing around! That’s how every morning starts. The pattern is well established by now. You wake up telling yourself it has to be today, that you’re definitely going to do it today; then you spend the next sixteen hours trying and failing to summon the courage. If you could skip ahead to the end of the day and see that it hadn’t happened, that wouldn’t be so bad. But no, you have to live through each moment one by one, a succession of vertiginous cliff-edges that you charge towards then at the last second shy away from. On and on, up and down, the exhausting flux of emotions locked tight inside you, like a rollercoaster in a prison.”
― Paul Murray, The Bee Sting