“Why do I have to be nice when most of the men aren’t?”
― Carrie Soto Is Back
― Carrie Soto Is Back
“Gwen smiles. “Do you know what part of ‘If—’ is actually relevant right now? To this moment? ‘If you can make one heap of all your winnings / And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss, / And lose, and start again at your beginnings / And never breathe a word about your loss.’ ” She must be messing with me. Surely she knows she’s just described my greatest fear. But no, I can tell from the look on her face that she sincerely thinks that I’m that brave, that I am doing this because I am okay with losing big. Not because I am terrified of losing at all. And it stuns me silent, for a moment: just how vast the gap is between who I am and how people see me.”
― Carrie Soto Is Back
― Carrie Soto Is Back
“I am no longer the greatest tennis player in the world. For the first time in my life, I can be...something else.”
― Carrie Soto Is Back
― Carrie Soto Is Back
“I keep thinking, I don’t cry on the court. I don’t cry on the court. But then I think, Maybe it’s a lie that you have to keep doing what you have always done. That you have to be able to draw a straight line from how you acted yesterday to how you’ll act tomorrow. You don’t have to be consistent. You can change, I think. Just because you want to. And so, for the first time in decades, I stand in front of a roaring crowd and cry.”
― Carrie Soto Is Back
― Carrie Soto Is Back
“I'm so grateful now, for every match and every win and every loss and every lesson that I have behind me. It feels so good, right now, to be thirty seven years old. To have figured at least some things out.”
― Carrie Soto Is Back
― Carrie Soto Is Back
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