Nathan

“Except that my life, for the most part, has been very stale and colorless. Dead, I mean. The world has always been an empty place to me. I was incapable of enjoying even the simplest things. I felt dead in everything I did.”
― Donna Tartt, The Secret History

“To live without thinking. [...] Before, I was paralyzed, though I didn't know it. It was because I thought too much, lived too much in the mind. It was hard to make decisions. I felt immobilized.”
― Donna Tartt, The Secret History

“i had just come back from the brink of Death itself, back to the sun and air. Now I was free; and my life, which I had thougt was lost, stretched out indescribably precious and sweet before me.”
― Donna Tartt, The Secret History

“What made me angrier was that none of the others seemed to care. To them, I knew, this didn’t make the slightest bit of difference. What was it to them if they had to go an extra term? What did it matter, if they failed to graduate, if they had to go back home? At least they had homes to go to. They had trust funds, allowances, dividend checks, doting grandmas, well-connected uncles, loving families. College for them was only a way station, a sort of youthful diversion. But this was my main chance, the only one. And I had blown it.”
― Donna Tartt, The Secret History