Ricard

“A little pebble starts as an avalanche," I said. "Life isn't like the craps table, where the next roll has the same chance of winning as the last one. In real life, you lose a little - and that makes you wonder if you deserve to lose. You get nervous, make mistakes, overcompensate. That makes you lose more, then it compounds. Eventually, you're so far gone..."
I heaved out a sigh. What was I doing? Trying to justify it all? Heap my bad decisions upon other sources?
No, I thought. You've never had a problem taking responsibility. You've always thought you were worthless.”
― Brandon Sanderson, The Frugal Wizard's Handbook for Surviving Medieval England