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“Sadece ölenlerin yası tutulmaz denizkızı," diye fısıldadı. "Ölen anların da yası tutulur. Ölen hislerin de yası tutulur. Sen ve ben hayatımız boyunca bu hüznü taşıyacağız. Yaşanmayacağını bildiğimiz o şeylerin yasını tutacağız.”
― N.G. Kabal, Krallar ve Soytarıları

“Benden nefret etmene dayanabilirim ama onu seveceksin diye ödüm kopuyor.”
― N.G. Kabal, Lordlar ve Varisler

“As they’re walking on the beach, in the dark sky above the person’s life is played out for them to see. As each scene is played, like a movie reel, the person notices that two sets of footprints were left in the sand behind them. And as they continued, every new scene brought with it a trail of their footprints.”
Poppy’s attention honed in on our footprints. “When all the scenes had been played, the person looks back on the trail of footprints and notices something strange. They notice that during the saddest, or most despairing times of their life, there was only one set of footprints. For happier times there was always two sets.”
My eyebrows furrowed, wondering where the story was headed. Poppy lifted her chin and blinked in the bright glare of the sun. With watery eyes, she looked at me and continued. “The person is really troubled by this. The Lord said that, when a person dedicates their life to Him, He would walk with them through all the ups and downs. The person then asked the Lord: why, at the worst points of their life, did He abandon them? Why did He leave?”
An expression of deep comfort washed over Poppy’s face. “And what?” I prompted. “What does the Lord say?”
A single tear fell from her eye. “He tells the person that He had walked with them their whole life through. But, He explains, the times where there is only a single set of footprints were not when He walked beside them, but instead, when He carried them.”
― Tillie Cole, A Thousand Boy Kisses