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“My love for Finny is buried like a stillborn child; it is just as cherished and just as real, but nothing will ever come of it. I imagine it wrapped up in lace, tucked away in a quiet corner of my heart. It will stay there for the rest of my life, and when I die, it will die with me.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been with Me

“Death happens to him more suddenly than I can describe to you or even care to imagine.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been with Me

“I’ve loved him my whole life, and somewhere along the way, that love didn’t change but grew. It grew to fill the parts of me that I did not have when I was a child. It grew with every new longing in my body and desire in my heart until there was not a piece of me that did not love him. And when I look at him, there is no other feeling in me.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been with Me

“Finny?” I say. There is silence. “Oh, Autumn,” my mother says.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been with Me