Softballet

“Whenever I was asked what I wanted my first impulse was to answer “Nothing.” The thought went through my mind that it didn’t make any difference, that nothing was going to make me happy. At the same time I was congenitally unable to refuse anything offered to me by another person, no matter how little it might suit my tastes. When I hated something, I could not pronounce the words, “I don’t like it.” When I liked something I tasted it hesitantly, furtively, as though it were extremely bitter. In either case I was torn by unspeakable fear. In other words, I hadn’t the strength even to choose between two alternatives.”
― Osamu Dazai, No Longer Human

“A mere smile can determine a woman's fate. It is frightening. Fascinatingly so. I have to be careful.”
― Osamu Dazai, Schoolgirl

“Tomorrow will probably be another day like today. Happiness will never come my way. I know that. But it's probably best to go to sleep believing that it will surely come, tomorrow it will come. I purposely made a loud thump as I fell into bed. Ah, that feels good. The futon was cool, just the right temperature against my back, and it was simply delightful. Sometimes happiness arrives one night too late. The thought occurred to me as I lay there. You wait and wait for happiness, and when finally you can't bear it any longer, you rush out of the house, only to hear later that a marvelous happiness arrived the following day at the home you had abandoned, and now it was too late. Sometimes happiness arrives one night too late. Happiness... I”
― Osamu Dazai, Schoolgirl

“მარადისობის კანონის აზრი იმაში მდგომარეობს, პატივცემულო პროფესორო, რომ... ადამიანის სული გაცილებით უფრო მძიმეა, ვიდრე სხეული, იმდენად მძიმე რომ ერთ ადამიანს მისი ტარება არ შეუძლია, ამიტომ, ვიდრე ცოცხლები ვართ, ერთმანეთს ხელი უნდა შევაშველოთ და ვეცადთ, როგორმე უკვდავყოთ ერთმანეტის სული; თქვენ ჩემი, მე სხვისი, სხვამ სხვისი და ასე დაუსაბამოდ, რამეთუ იმ სხვისი გარდაცვალების შემდეგ არ დავობლდეთ და მარტონი არ დავრჩეთ ამ ქვეყანაზე...”
― Nodar Dumbadze, მარადისობის კანონი