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“The fact that someone else knew what happened was weirdly freeing. It was like, now that he knew, the whole situation didn’t just exist in my head—it was real. The pain it caused me was real. The aftermath was real.”
― Lyla Sage, Done and Dusted

“A few years ago, I was diagnosed with ADHD. I’ve always felt like I’ve been doing a million things at once, and I felt like I had to give all of those things all of my attention.” I thought about the way being diagnosed had changed things for me. All of the sudden, I could explain why I did things the way I did. It was a revelation for me. It had made things different, but not in the way I expected. I’d hoped the diagnosis would be a fix-all, that I would no longer feel so desperate to be in complete control all the time, and that I would stop making impulsive decisions based on the fact that it made me feel like I was in charge of my own life for a minute. That didn’t happen. Instead, I would kind of know why I was doing something, but I wouldn’t be able to stop myself from doing it. I kept on doing too many things and fixating on the things that made me feel like I had power.”
― Lyla Sage, Done and Dusted

“I hate going home, but guilt compels me. It’s not that I hate my family or anything. I just feel very uncomfortable around them and harbor the vague suspicion that they hate me, which isn’t entirely unfounded given that while they’ve been supportive in a material and financial sense, they mostly seem to find my personality, affect, choices, and demeanor to be unpleasant at best.”
― Anna Dorn, Perfume & Pain

“It was hard to miss someone you never knew, but I still missed the idea of her.”
― Lyla Sage, Done and Dusted