Amandine

“People say it’s the finality of death that they can’t handle. But what was tearing me apart was that I didn’t know where Aidan was. I mean, he had to be somewhere.
All his opinions and thoughts and memories and hopes and feelings, all the things that were unique to him, that made him a one-off human being—they couldn’t be just gone.”
― Marian Keyes, Anybody Out There?

“I mean, I knew he’d died but I’d never believed it was permanent”
― Marian Keyes, Anybody Out There?

“It was an interesting lesson in power. The only time you truly have it is when you genuinely don’t care whether you have it or not.”
― Marian Keyes, Anybody Out There?

“I'm trying..." How could I put it? "I'm trying to get far enough down the line so that I can remember." I stopped, then continued: "so that I can remember without the pain killing me"

And the days were stacking up. And weeks. And months. It was now almost the middle of June and he'd died in February, but I still felt like I'd just woken from a horrible dream, that I was suspended in that stunned, paralyzed state between sleep and reality where I was grasping for, but couldn't get a handle on normality.”
― Marian Keyes, Anybody Out There?