Nai

“Mine has been a life of much shame. I can't even guess myself what it must be to live the life of a human being.”
― Osamu Dazai, No Longer Human

“I thought, “I want to die. I want to die more than ever before. There’s no chance now of a recovery. No matter what sort of thing I do, no matter what I do, it’s sure to be a failure, just a final coating applied to my shame. That dream of going on bicycles to see a waterfall framed in summer leaves—it was not for the likes of me. All that can happen now is that one foul, humiliating sin will be piled on another, and my sufferings will become only the more acute. I want to die. I must die. Living itself is the source of sin.”
― Osamu Dazai, No Longer Human

“whether I liked it or not, whether I chose to stifle it or shout it from the rooftops, I saw everything through the lens of rape. It’s still the case today: Even though now there are lulls when I can think about other things, even though it’s not always about that, often it still is. In that sense he won and there’s nothing I can do about it. Damaged for life.”
― Neige Sinno, Sad Tiger

“Tell me, just this once, if you still think of me. And let me recklessly, tenderly, tell you one more time: I love you.”
― Qiu Miaojin, Notes of a Crocodile