Logan B

“You know what I think really makes me an addict?" she asked.
"It's not how many drugs I took or how much I drank. It's not even the lying."
"What?"
She inhaled so deeply that her lungs burned.
"I find what gives me pleasure and I do it until it gives me pain," she said. "Every time."
Charlie looked at her with his funny half smile.
"Yeah, but how else would you know when to stop?”
― Coco Mellors, Blue Sisters

“There’s just no end to the missing. There was life before and there’s life now. And I can’t seem to accept it. I can’t accept that I’ll have to miss her forever. There will never be relief. There will never be a reunion.”
― Coco Mellors, Blue Sisters

“True sisterhood, the kind where you grew fingernails in the same womb, were pushed screaming through identical birth canals, is not the same as friendship. You don’t choose each other, and there’s no furtive period of getting to know the other. You’re part of each other, right from the start.”
― Coco Mellors, Blue Sisters

“Their mother always fed them, and she never hit them—Bonnie always liked to remind herself of that. But she was overwhelmed by them. She wasn’t the kind of mom who derived satisfaction from cooking or domestic work, but she never asked for help. Each evening, she launched herself at the task of feeding the four of them like an explorer on a particularly grueling leg of a solo mission she regretted starting but had resigned herself to completing. In Bonnie’s opinion, their mother was afraid of Avery, baffled by Bonnie, intermittently charmed by Nicky, and oblivious to Lucky. None of which, obviously, were ideal.”
― Coco Mellors, Blue Sisters