megan ☆

“All I feel are the assaults of apprehension and terror at the thought that I am the only one who is entirely unlike the rest.”
― Osamu Dazai, No Longer Human

“It is true, I suppose, that nobody finds it exactly pleasant to be criticized or shouted at, but I see in the face of the human being raging at me a wild animal in its true colours, one more horrible than any lion, crocodile or dragon.”
― Osamu Dazai, No Longer Human

“I think that even a death mask would hold more of an expression, leave more of a memory. That effigy suggests nothing so much as a human body to which a horse's head has been attached. Something ineffable makes the beholder shudder in distaste. I have never seen such an inscrutable face on a man.”
― Osamu Dazai, No Longer Human

“Some things are too terrible to grasp at once. Other things - naked, spluttering, indelible in their horror - are too terrible to grasp at all. It is only later, in solitude, in memory that the realisation dawns: when the ashes are cold; when the mourners have departed; when one looks around and finds oneself - quite to one's surprise - in an entirely different world.”
― Donna Tartt, The Secret History