meesprit

“I am too young and I've loved you too much. I know that I ought not to say this, that it would be more dignified on my part simply to leave you, and it would be less offensive for you. But I am going far away, and shall never come back. . . It is for ever. I don't want to sit beside a 'laceration'. . . . But I don't know how to speak now. I've said everything. . . . Good Bye. You can't be angry with me, for I am a hundred times more severely punished than you, if only by the fact that I shall never see you again. Good bye! I don't want your hand. You have tortured me too deliberately for me to be able to forgive you at this moment. I shall forgive you later, but now I don't want your hand.”
― Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Brothers Karamazov