Lara

“It wasn't the shock treatment that struck me, so much as the bare-faced treachery of Doctor Nolan. I liked Doctor Nolan, I loved her, I had given her my trust on a platter and told her everything, and she had promised, faithfully, to warn me ahead of time if ever I had to have another shock treatment.

If she had told me the night before I would have lain awake all night, of course, full of dread and foreboding, but by
morning I would have been composed and ready. I would have gone down the hall between two nurses, past DeeDee and
Loubelle and Mrs. Savage and Joan, with dignity, like a person coolly resigned to execution.”
― Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar

“I can hear them already: "Our dead...". Then they'll go and have dinner.”
― Albert Camus, The Plague

“[...] and your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for nothing. Isn't that fearful? Isn't it fearful that you are living in this filth which you loathe so, and at the same time you know yourself (you've only to open your eyes) that you are not helping any one by it, not saving any one from anything! Tell me," he went on almost in a frenzy, "how this shame and degradation can exist in you side by side with other, opposite, holy feelings? It would be better, a thousand times better and wiser to leap into the water and end it all!”
― Fyodor Dostoevsky, Crime and Punishment

“I crawled back into bed and pulled the sheet over my head. But even that didn't shut out the light, so I buried my head
under the darkness of the pillow and pretended it was night. I couldn't see the point of getting up. I had nothing to look forward
to.”
― Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar