Kyla

“Pg 274/275 Depression takes all my vibrant colours and bashes them together until I am gray, gray, gray. Eventually I get too low to operate, but as I begin to fade, I can usually still accomplish small things: do the dishes, take the kids to school, smile when it seems called for. It’s just that it’s all forced. I am acting instead of responding, because I have forgotten the point.
I know I am floating into anxiety when I find myself obsessing. Obsessing over the next speech, the kids, the house, my marriage, my body, my hair. Anxiety is feeling terrified about my lack of control over anything, and obsessing is my antidote. Living with anxiety - living alarmed - makes it impossible to enter the moment, to land inside my body and be there. I cannot be in the moment because I am too afraid of what the next moment will bring. I have to be ready. When one lives in a constant state of vigilance, if something goes wrong: forget about it. Full panic. Fifteen to a hundred in two seconds flat.”
― Glennon Doyle, Untamed

“Pg 118  Dad says that God made us to live with dignity. Instead medicine and science get all caught up in the technicalities...in the heroic measures.We put all our efforts into keeping a person alive at any cost. It's as if winning the battle is more important than the person.”
― Lurlene McDaniel, The End of Forever

“Pg 117 "... a Doctor takes an oath to heal and restore and to relieve suffering....at the very least he's to do no harm. But still I wonder - just because medicine CAN do something, SHOULD it be done?”
― Lurlene McDaniel, The End of Forever

“Pg 117 They're able to save more and more of the ones born prematurely. It's a good thing but I wonder, is it the right thing?”
― Lurlene McDaniel, The End of Forever